ther is light at the end of that tunnel!

[needabreak]

and its not just a burglar's torch (stolen line)

i'm half way threw week 5 and ther's definitely a bit of a change happening-a few days ago i was in serious bad form-i was on the verge of sayin to fu'ck wi this not smokin cr'ap-if it feels this bad then i'v had enough of it-i felt overall good the first few weeks-then sorta felt nothing-then went on a major downer-without a bit of positive encouragement i think i'd prob be smokin for ireland again-thanks dude i sorta laugh now wen i think of it-here we all are-our countries top tokers all goen mad with it-and then even madder wiout it-

i filled my system wi dope dudes-all day every day-well that was me-dont get in the road of my smoke thing man!i was up to the neck int-even deeper-nearly straightjacketed-so i stopped-i know i aint ther yet-aye i'm not smokin but ther's more to it than that-have i accepted the fact that i aint smokin ever again?i havent-no matter how strong my resolve is now i cant say never again-thats a diifferent hurdle-for a different time-

it took 5 weeks for me to even start to think straight-i was foolin myself that one month and i'd hav it done-no way-and now i feel okay-in fact i can say-i feel good-i'v fixed nothing else in my life-just stopped smokin-i needed to see wat it felt like to have a THC free body and mind-its tough gettin ther but it feels good dudes-

and i was a hopeless dope smokin stoner king of the layabouts-i was smokin a quarter per day and a half-gettin thro about twenty joints each and every day-not wee single skinner bollox-we went to amsterdam last year and i was well screwed up-i had to be talked into goin-to gettin out me door-my point is........it dont matter how much u think u cant-u can-ur brain is tellin u that u cany in the hope that u wont-because then if u stop u'll have real life to deal with-and sometimes real life can be so hard dudes-and our inner selves knows this-in side us ther's survival systems to keep us right-all us smokaholics can stop-we just need to get over those first few hurdles-and who put them hurdles in our way?we did-no one else but us-its tough to admit but i'm addicted to dope and because of this i might never be able to smoke it again-i dont know-i'm not smokin for now anyway-

i'v set myself another 5 weeks potfree to see how i feel-if its anything like now then i might never want to go bak to it-i feel good now-ther is hope for 2day, tomorro, wenever-over a month ago i was messed up-between encouragement, my own wiill power, blockin dope out, gettin annoyed, gettin angry, being depressed-thro all these emotions i'm here today-and it feels okay-

our brains are trickin us into thinkin that we cant stop smokin-the world tells us "once a smoker always a smoker" -the world's that cr'ap sure we all need something to get us thro-i dont know-all i do know is i'v had enough of spendin my life stoned-i'v had enough of 4gettin stuff and lettin it slide rather than deal with it-stoppin smokin is hard-it is mental-it is emotional-not smokin can seem pointless-it all depends on how much i know i was fu'ckin my life up and how much i want to sort it out-

its easy to say now-bring on the next 5 weeks-who knows wat'll fall out of my brain!bring it on-

ther's a gale blowin across ireland today dudes wi clouds filled wi tons of rain-but i feel like summer for the first time in a long time and the shades are on

[Drug Rehab Chick]

Nothin beats stayin straight..regardless of the pitfalls.

Hey matey,

Once again you have hit the nail on the head, as only you can..u really r a gem! it sux bigtime having to deal with reality and all the garbage that goes with it! Just keep the shades on cos things will get even brighter, I just know it! Good on ya. Peace.

[Hopefull1]

You're an inspiration mate - keep going and well done!!!