First day marijuana free

[Donna G]

I need all the help I can get! Today is my first day without smoking after picking up for three years. I am a recovering alcoholic who replaced the booze with weed. I was clean and sober for three years, then one day my kids left a half a blunt sitting on my porch. I picked it up and smoked it, lyed about it too...my kids went to look for their blunt and I told them I knew nothing. If that's not addict behaviour nothing is. I've known I've had a problem for years. I also know I am self medicating as I suffer from Bipolar disase and take a ton of physcotropic drugs (wellbutrin, prozac, abilify and seriquel). Reciently I lost a job because I got cut at work and had to be drug tested and of course failed. I also have been going on job interviews stoned, hell what am I talking anout, I do everything stoned! I stayed high all day. I'm scared to death!

[Drug Rehab Chick]

Hi Donna G.

My heart goes out to you..I know how scary it is...I have an anxiety disorder and that combined with the pot made every day hell. Trust me when I tell u that even though the detoxing can be horrible, no matter how bad it gets its still not as bad as the nightmare of a life and mind run by pot...It sounds like ur in a bad place rite now..I'm so sorry mate. I know the feeling of not being able to cope without dope..I hated myself so much because of it...I'm jobless too, its not fun. My life is a drama and I am dealing with some really painful things...I rely very much on the fabulous people that are here. I'm so glad ur here...I'm so glad u decided to post something, cos now we can support you..and it really really helps. We'v all been where u r...I'm still there to a point..I'm still scared and uncertain about so many things...but I want you to know that you should be proud of the fact that u'v recognised pot is a problem...u'v admitted it and that takes courage...it means facing a very ugly reality. And u r not smoking. Every minute counts. Please try not to be scared...u can do this..there are people in ur world that can help and people on here that can too..and we sincerely want to...this site has become like a family to me and it can be that to you too so don't be afraid of saying anything to us. Gain strength from the fact that ur truly not alone in this...that u have nothing but friends here...no judgement, just support...lean on it...please lean on it...I would be stoned rite now without this site, of that I am certain..its just too much to deal with alone..and sometimes we all feel completely incapable of dealing. Ur not alone. Ur really not. So try to congratulate urself on the positive things...cos dwelling on the negatives will do ur head in and thats not helpful...ur mind is playing nasty tricks...it will bombard you with feelings of failure and inadequacy...not being worthy..its lying to you. U r worth more than life is giving you rite now...its a hard process, but completely worth it. Take heart mate. Don't give up. You're too important to give up on..thats the truth. Peace.