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Hi all,
Has been 8 days without cannabis now.Cold sweats during the night seem to have gone and things are really becoming clear and I feel so positive about my future.I am back living with my parents and they are being so supportive.This is not an instruction manual as I know not everyone is lucky enough to have the situation I have or the support I have.This is just how I am achieving my goal.I hope some if not all of this can help others.
Every day I wake up early and every day I have a plan so that I stay focused and busy.I have a routine.
No.1 is getting up however bad I feel and taking myself off for a shower to prepare for the day.I think this increases my selfesteem and prepares me for the day.
No.2 is breakfast,this gives me energy and definitely helps me feel ready for the day.Porridge,toast,healthy cereals are good.
No.3 split the day into high priority and low priority things I must do.Obviously high priority first.I have debts and I am unemployed so anything that needs to be done regarding these areas must be addressed first.Phone calls made,letters sent,looking for work all done before lunch time if I can.If I am not going to achieve what needs to be done by lunch time then I have to accept that,get the most important things/things I dont really want to address done first.The sooner these things are done the sooner I can move onto the less stressful things.Of course I do have to pace myself and its best to spread these things over a couple of days rather than doing everything in one day.I take a break mid morning if this is the case and the day seems less daunting.I take a break of no longer than 15 mins then onto the less daunting tasks.Lunch is important and I allways take a break for something to eat.Again break for no longer than 30 mins then on with the next jobs.Low priority jobs I class as my washing,preparing dinner,house work and gardening etc.These are important though as they again build my self respect and of course help me look and feel better not only in appearance but also within.
No.4.rewards.Down time mainly-tv,going on the internet,time to myself.
I am not working but I treat each day as a days work.When I finish my days work I can relax.Before relaxing though I plan the following days work/chores
I allow myself to go to bed when I want and because I am living with my parents miles away from my contacts for getting cannabis I have no temtation to smoke.I have no idea where to get it from here and tbh they dont let me out of thier sight.Of course though I have learnt its not worth staying up til the early hours as I have to be up early in the morning.
All of this is working and I have not tried to fight it one bit.You have to want this and stick to your routine.As I say this is just how I am fighting my addiction,but I have found being focused and busy is the greatest thing to take my mind off the cravings.
At times I have felt like a little kid and a little crowded/trapped but I am willing to do what ever it takes.
Possibly my best advice would be is to seek your families help and suggest something similar as tbh I could not do this without them.
They have told me this is my only chance for their help to do this and they have said that at any time if I decide I dont want this they will be happy to take me and all my stuff and drop me outside my dealers house back in my town.That scares the s"!t out of me as I would be homeless and jobless and very alone.
Its working for me,I hope this may help others.
Take care
Seph
Has been 8 days without cannabis now.Cold sweats during the night seem to have gone and things are really becoming clear and I feel so positive about my future.I am back living with my parents and they are being so supportive.This is not an instruction manual as I know not everyone is lucky enough to have the situation I have or the support I have.This is just how I am achieving my goal.I hope some if not all of this can help others.
Every day I wake up early and every day I have a plan so that I stay focused and busy.I have a routine.
No.1 is getting up however bad I feel and taking myself off for a shower to prepare for the day.I think this increases my selfesteem and prepares me for the day.
No.2 is breakfast,this gives me energy and definitely helps me feel ready for the day.Porridge,toast,healthy cereals are good.
No.3 split the day into high priority and low priority things I must do.Obviously high priority first.I have debts and I am unemployed so anything that needs to be done regarding these areas must be addressed first.Phone calls made,letters sent,looking for work all done before lunch time if I can.If I am not going to achieve what needs to be done by lunch time then I have to accept that,get the most important things/things I dont really want to address done first.The sooner these things are done the sooner I can move onto the less stressful things.Of course I do have to pace myself and its best to spread these things over a couple of days rather than doing everything in one day.I take a break mid morning if this is the case and the day seems less daunting.I take a break of no longer than 15 mins then onto the less daunting tasks.Lunch is important and I allways take a break for something to eat.Again break for no longer than 30 mins then on with the next jobs.Low priority jobs I class as my washing,preparing dinner,house work and gardening etc.These are important though as they again build my self respect and of course help me look and feel better not only in appearance but also within.
No.4.rewards.Down time mainly-tv,going on the internet,time to myself.
I am not working but I treat each day as a days work.When I finish my days work I can relax.Before relaxing though I plan the following days work/chores
I allow myself to go to bed when I want and because I am living with my parents miles away from my contacts for getting cannabis I have no temtation to smoke.I have no idea where to get it from here and tbh they dont let me out of thier sight.Of course though I have learnt its not worth staying up til the early hours as I have to be up early in the morning.
All of this is working and I have not tried to fight it one bit.You have to want this and stick to your routine.As I say this is just how I am fighting my addiction,but I have found being focused and busy is the greatest thing to take my mind off the cravings.
At times I have felt like a little kid and a little crowded/trapped but I am willing to do what ever it takes.
Possibly my best advice would be is to seek your families help and suggest something similar as tbh I could not do this without them.
They have told me this is my only chance for their help to do this and they have said that at any time if I decide I dont want this they will be happy to take me and all my stuff and drop me outside my dealers house back in my town.That scares the s"!t out of me as I would be homeless and jobless and very alone.
Its working for me,I hope this may help others.
Take care
Seph
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