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Hello All, 
As with most of you, I am a cannabis addict. My desire to detox and over-come the habit had brought me to this forum, and I have to say things I have read so far and other peoples problems sound very familiar.
I have smoked Cannabis on and off since I was 14/15, generally hash with my school mates. It was only really on the odd occasion. I whitey'd several times and didnt really enjoy it that much - I just thought it was a cool thing to do! At this time it was never a problem as it was only occasionly. I could not really afford it on my paper round money!!
It wasnt really until I was about 18 that I first tried skunk with some of mates - I have just turned 25. A lot of my close mates were into it and I had just split up with a girlfriend of 3 years. This drew me closer to my mates again and this is really when the problems started. My best mate had a flat and I spent most evenings up there with other mates blazing it up until the early hours. (I still lived at home with my parents) After a while 'most' evenings started to turn into 'every' evening. My social circle ended up being the people I smoked with and other good friends of mine that didnt smoke the drug sort of fell away.
What started off with watching a few DVD's, ordering a Pizza and having a few J's is still haunting me now 6/7 years later!! I really enjoyed smoking the drug around this time, used to get the giggles and have a laugh with my mates without causing anyone any harm, playing playstation and watching films.
I then started to smoke the drug by myself. I would always get home from work and take the dog for a walk, smoke a J on the way round the park before dinner. This would then pretty much cancel out the rest of the evening for me as I would then be in a hazy bubble for the rest of the evening. (could not be arsed to do anything).
My parents were aware that I smoked weed, but thought it was only occasionally so were not overly bothered. My father is a police officer and although cannabis is illegal he always said if it was legal, he would try it to see what all the fuss is about. He also worked many Saturday nights in busy town centres dealing with drunks (not a pleasant job) and knew that I was safe around a mates house not causing any trouble.
I moved out of home at 21 and things got worse. I didnt have to take the dog for a walk anymore to have a joint, I could sit in the back garden or smoke at my bedroom window. I was probably smoking about half ounce of strong skunk a week!
I quit smoking the drug last January for 3 months and I have to say that I felt fantastic at the time. The first few weeks were rocky with sleep but I got over it. I was going to the gym 3 or 4 times a week. I started seeing another girl who I am still with now (she is gorgeous and I love her). This also helped keep my off the weed. Then I caught up with a few of my old mates who were still smoking and gradually it phased back into my life.
I brought my own house with my sister last November and my girlfriend moved in with us. I don't smoke in the house to be respectful to my sister and my girlfriend. My sister has commented recently on how often I was smoking the drug in the back garden and said she didn't realise how much of that **** I smoked until we lived together. My girlfriend says the same!!
January this year came again and I said the same thing. I am going to detox weed. Lasted about 3 weeks (until I saw some of my friends again!!!) We are now in Mid June and I am still smoking the weed. My girlfriend is getting a bit fed up with me saying "I will quit from Monday", "this is my last score" and things like that. Sometimes I can be a bit short with her due to moods, it isn'tme, its the weed.
I am lucky in that I have a good job earning good money, own my own house and go on 2 or 3 holidays abroad a year. I do have good friends and do go out and enjoy myself (although usually have a J before going out). I forgot to add that I will quite often smoke a J while driving which is terrible really.
I really do want to quit. I think this is a good place to start and would like to post my daily occurences here as I have read that keeping a diary will help. I have been sticking to just a J a day for a couple of weeks now and set a date with my gfriend for 22nd June to stop completely. I know if I don't do it this time there is a danger of damaging my relatonship with my girlfriend. I also have found recently that I have not been motivated at work and we all know how important it is to have a job, especially when you have a mortgage!! I get easily distracted!!
I have always wanted to move away from the UK and looking at possible places to immigrate, hopefully in the next year or two. I hope that this could also be a fresh start for me witha goal of moving away at the end of it.
Will keep you posted from Monday 22nd to help myself and hopefully others. Advice and guidance is also greatly appreciated.
Peace out and speak soon.
F*ckmaryjane
xx
As with most of you, I am a cannabis addict. My desire to detox and over-come the habit had brought me to this forum, and I have to say things I have read so far and other peoples problems sound very familiar.
I have smoked Cannabis on and off since I was 14/15, generally hash with my school mates. It was only really on the odd occasion. I whitey'd several times and didnt really enjoy it that much - I just thought it was a cool thing to do! At this time it was never a problem as it was only occasionly. I could not really afford it on my paper round money!!
It wasnt really until I was about 18 that I first tried skunk with some of mates - I have just turned 25. A lot of my close mates were into it and I had just split up with a girlfriend of 3 years. This drew me closer to my mates again and this is really when the problems started. My best mate had a flat and I spent most evenings up there with other mates blazing it up until the early hours. (I still lived at home with my parents) After a while 'most' evenings started to turn into 'every' evening. My social circle ended up being the people I smoked with and other good friends of mine that didnt smoke the drug sort of fell away.
What started off with watching a few DVD's, ordering a Pizza and having a few J's is still haunting me now 6/7 years later!! I really enjoyed smoking the drug around this time, used to get the giggles and have a laugh with my mates without causing anyone any harm, playing playstation and watching films.
I then started to smoke the drug by myself. I would always get home from work and take the dog for a walk, smoke a J on the way round the park before dinner. This would then pretty much cancel out the rest of the evening for me as I would then be in a hazy bubble for the rest of the evening. (could not be arsed to do anything).
My parents were aware that I smoked weed, but thought it was only occasionally so were not overly bothered. My father is a police officer and although cannabis is illegal he always said if it was legal, he would try it to see what all the fuss is about. He also worked many Saturday nights in busy town centres dealing with drunks (not a pleasant job) and knew that I was safe around a mates house not causing any trouble.
I moved out of home at 21 and things got worse. I didnt have to take the dog for a walk anymore to have a joint, I could sit in the back garden or smoke at my bedroom window. I was probably smoking about half ounce of strong skunk a week!
I quit smoking the drug last January for 3 months and I have to say that I felt fantastic at the time. The first few weeks were rocky with sleep but I got over it. I was going to the gym 3 or 4 times a week. I started seeing another girl who I am still with now (she is gorgeous and I love her). This also helped keep my off the weed. Then I caught up with a few of my old mates who were still smoking and gradually it phased back into my life.
I brought my own house with my sister last November and my girlfriend moved in with us. I don't smoke in the house to be respectful to my sister and my girlfriend. My sister has commented recently on how often I was smoking the drug in the back garden and said she didn't realise how much of that **** I smoked until we lived together. My girlfriend says the same!!
January this year came again and I said the same thing. I am going to detox weed. Lasted about 3 weeks (until I saw some of my friends again!!!) We are now in Mid June and I am still smoking the weed. My girlfriend is getting a bit fed up with me saying "I will quit from Monday", "this is my last score" and things like that. Sometimes I can be a bit short with her due to moods, it isn'tme, its the weed.
I am lucky in that I have a good job earning good money, own my own house and go on 2 or 3 holidays abroad a year. I do have good friends and do go out and enjoy myself (although usually have a J before going out). I forgot to add that I will quite often smoke a J while driving which is terrible really.
I really do want to quit. I think this is a good place to start and would like to post my daily occurences here as I have read that keeping a diary will help. I have been sticking to just a J a day for a couple of weeks now and set a date with my gfriend for 22nd June to stop completely. I know if I don't do it this time there is a danger of damaging my relatonship with my girlfriend. I also have found recently that I have not been motivated at work and we all know how important it is to have a job, especially when you have a mortgage!! I get easily distracted!!
I have always wanted to move away from the UK and looking at possible places to immigrate, hopefully in the next year or two. I hope that this could also be a fresh start for me witha goal of moving away at the end of it.
Will keep you posted from Monday 22nd to help myself and hopefully others. Advice and guidance is also greatly appreciated.
Peace out and speak soon.
F*ckmaryjane
xx
haha. Its much more enjoyable sober tho. Like everything in life.
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