Male.21.Weed is KILLING My Life.Need Help.Day1ofQuitting=6/22/09

[R2Road2redemption]

Hey everybody
Honeslty, I'm so glad I found this forum. It seems as though recently my addiction to marijuana has become worse and for me to find CannabisRehab.org makes me feel like it was destiny, not to make this sound mushy or anything. I'm 21 years old, a junior in college (suppose to be a senior but you know..**** happens.) I've smoked the drug since I was 16 years old. So that's 5 years(I feel like I can type for ever but I don't want to bore you, feel free to skip through my rant but i just need support !)

Reading many posts on CannabisRehab.org alot of the stories HIT HOME in a major way.
I'm so isolated from everyone i know, family members, my own parents, friends, I barely have friends anymore, I feel like I am always alone everywhere I go.
I also feel like the drug addiction has messed me up with my relationships. I was able to get into and hold relationships when I was 16, 17 but I've havent had a relationship since I was 17. I'm not talking about casual sex either, even though that has decreased substantially, I'm talking a true relationship.
I find myself in my room basically everyday, I do go out and I am sociable but not nearly as much as I want to be.
When I'm at home and no one is around I make sure I light up, being high I feel like was the only thing being good to me. Parents divorced as soon as I went to college, grades dropped now to the point my grades are still diminishing
I'm not really worried about my grades because the field I want to enter is being a musical producer. I've bought my equipment and I've really been trying to get better everyday, setting aside hours everyday to keep a natural workflow. But whenever I get High I become to lazy and I don't want to work anymore, I just rather lay around and think about the past

All in all, I need to quit, I've already smoked today so I'm declaring today to be my last day (unfortunately I'm not going to lie I'll probably smoke again today but only because I've done it... see my problem?) I'm horribly addicted but my passion to do well in music and in life are more important

I see everyone here is saying once you quit you become more clear and things tend to get better, and I know this myself but for some reason I can't seem to quit. When I smoke is when I usually see people because most people around me smoke weed. So whenever I'm not smoking the drug I'm usually not around people, which pushes me further into my isolation spell.

I wrote to myself to read whenever I have the erge, but that doesn't work either, I want to know if anyone has done this method and has it worked?

Any ideas for someone who desperatly needs to quit? Thank you to anyone who helps me along the way, I need this so bad.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi R2Road2redemption welcome.

Your story sounds familiar to me, I cut my self off from the world and became very isolated and like you the only people I saw were other people who smoked weed. It gives you a distorted view of the world as it makes you feel like what you are doing is perfectly normal, as everyone else you know does the same, but it’s really not like that, it’s just because of the people that you have chosen to surrounded yourself with and the main reason you do it is because they use drugs too, that’s often the way with drug use whether it’s drink, dope or whatever, birds of a feather certainly do flock together, which is great is it’s a healthy culture but not so great if it’s not.

I have made a list of all the best tips that I could find on how to detox smoking marijuana, I hope you find it of some help. You may also want to try some sort of meditation or self hypnosis, these can be really effective tools for some. But I think one of the most important things, is having somewhere to share your feelings when things become too much, I hope we can be of some support in that area.

Take care thanks for sharing and anytime you want to get something of your chest we will be here to listen.

Please keep us posted, all the best and good luck!

[RDRoad2Redemption]

Thanks for the insight. Its 2:30 am and I am officially starting to go cold turkey. Thanks for the support, hopefully stopping this will lead me to finally be able to figure out my other problems. cant wait!

[Pipechuffer]

Hi R2Road2redemption,
Well done on facing up to your addiction.
I also found myself very isolated 16 years of drug abuse, my only friends being cannabis smokers. I havnt been in a relationship for over five years as a result. But hey, all that can change.
There really is some great advice on the forum. The thing thats helping me most is physical exercise. I was already a member of a gym but now im hitting it pretty hard and mountain biking and playing squash. It also helps me sleep at night as im totally knackerd by bedtime. But you dont need to join a gym, just throw on some trainers and go for a run. Its free and will leave you feeling calm for hours afterwards. Just start off slowly!
Good luck m8 and just take it one day at a time

[R2Road2redemption]

Thanks pipechuffer I appreciate the good wishes and I am trying my hardest to take it one day at time! I really need this to work for me or who knows what worse can happen, honestly..

This is Day 2 and i feel great & very optimistic about the future, don't see myself falling back to my addiction for anyone or anything !

[needabreak]

stoppin smoking dope wont solve ur problems-in a way it makes u worry more about them-and can make them seem bigger than they are-getting stoned just allows us to drift-its all about askin urself are u happy to continue to drift-i'm not-things have been lying round my brain for years cause i drifted into nevernever land-comin back to reality is a bit of a shock to the system-but i'm hopin it makes life better-learn th guitar or something-at least wen its all done u'll have some new skill to keep u going-

i aint ther yet but i just gotta keep goin-during ur quit ur brain will try to drag u back-it can be so easy to give in on a bad day-those bad days'll pass-life's like hillwalkin-some days u'll enjoy it and take in the view-other days its head down and struggle threw it-either way u'll get there-and enjoy lookin back from wer u came from-

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Stopping using drugs may not solve all your problems, I am not sure that there’s anything that will do that, let’s face it very few peoples lives are totally without problems, but it may improve them to a significant extent, depending on how related the problem is to your drug use, which for a lot of people here some of their problems are. Sure taking drugs may make them seem or feel less worse in the short term, but that’s just the trick that drugs play on the mind and if the problem is related to your drug use then it ain’t going to go away and the more you use the worse it is likely to get.

As always I think you have to try to solve the underlying cause of the problem and think long term. Anyhow that’s just my take on it.

Well done on your efforts so far! Keep up the good work!

[bongwater]

like others have said, stopping the drug won't solve your problems, but at least it will put you in a position to solve them! Big, big difference...