Hello,
I'm eidolon and I'm a the drug addict. :P
I just discovered CannabisRehab.org while searching for resources for marijuana addiction. It's weird, because I had always been told -- and believed -- you couldn't be addicted to it. I used to "take it or leave it." But I had a personal crisis over a year ago and have been smoking every single night since. If I have access to it, I'll smoke it until it's gone or I fall asleep.
I keep telling myself that I'll only have a bowl just before going to sleep (I get insomnia if I don't smoke), but by the time I leave work the only thing on my mind is getting high. I have so many projects I keep putting off because I'm too busy smoking. I've developed a bad chest cough. And my weight's increasing thanks to the munchies.
I want to quit, but at the same time, I'm worried. I really do have sleeping issues that cannabis helps with. My friends are big smokers; they'd support me if I stopped, but they wouldn't stop themselves. And if I don't smoke, I end up drinking, which is worse because of the weight gain and hangovers. And I really don't want to give up drinking too -- but that's kind of a sign, isn't it?
As you can tell, I'm feeling very conflicted. :/ I haven't told anyone about it because I'm embarrassed. I think my non-smoking friends would think less of me, and my smoking friends would minimize the impact this addiction has on my life.
Thank you for letting me get that off my chest.
I'm eidolon and I'm a the drug addict. :P
I just discovered CannabisRehab.org while searching for resources for marijuana addiction. It's weird, because I had always been told -- and believed -- you couldn't be addicted to it. I used to "take it or leave it." But I had a personal crisis over a year ago and have been smoking every single night since. If I have access to it, I'll smoke it until it's gone or I fall asleep.
I keep telling myself that I'll only have a bowl just before going to sleep (I get insomnia if I don't smoke), but by the time I leave work the only thing on my mind is getting high. I have so many projects I keep putting off because I'm too busy smoking. I've developed a bad chest cough. And my weight's increasing thanks to the munchies.
I want to quit, but at the same time, I'm worried. I really do have sleeping issues that cannabis helps with. My friends are big smokers; they'd support me if I stopped, but they wouldn't stop themselves. And if I don't smoke, I end up drinking, which is worse because of the weight gain and hangovers. And I really don't want to give up drinking too -- but that's kind of a sign, isn't it?
As you can tell, I'm feeling very conflicted. :/ I haven't told anyone about it because I'm embarrassed. I think my non-smoking friends would think less of me, and my smoking friends would minimize the impact this addiction has on my life.
Thank you for letting me get that off my chest.
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