Relapsed with Weed

[guy]

I relapsed a month or two ago after quitting for 5 months. I wish I never would of went out to the car and smoked that night at the bar. Ever since then my cravings were right back and I ended up buying the drug again. Now I'm out and can't find any and to be honest I hate trying to buy weed. I hate making phone calls to see who has some or can get some. I really like smoking the drug but It gets in my way and I'm better being sober. This weekend is going to suck. Here comes the pain of quitting all over again. I hope it's easier this time. I wish I didn't feel like my life was ending right now. I wish I didn't get so stressed out when not being stoned. A week from now I should be ok but I'm pissed that I need to start over. Why am I such an addict to things? Why do I do this to myself? Anybody else know what I'm talking about?

[needabreak]

aye-goin round in circles is sh'it-i can see how we have a problem with pot and then stop and then think its just a wee smoke and b4 u know it ur straight back to that crisis level of misery u had b4-my theory is this-if we continue to hit receptors in our brains over a long period of time it takes a lot of repitition to get to the crisis-it matters not wat the substance is-at the start its now and again-then slightly more-and then gradually more more and more-we dont get into a state overnight-we'r up 2 our necks in it b4 we even realise-it took me a right few years to achieve the levels of depression i got to-then we have to fight our way out-and its hard-then wen we'r free we delude ourselves that its not gona be like b4-but unfortunately because we'v allready dug them lines in our brains they dont go away-i know now that if i took a smoke tonight i'd be back to square one practically straight away-therd be no gradual slip down that hill it'd be straight over the cliff-

u'v stopped b4-u know it can be done-and u know the benefits-u'v accepted ther's a problem-and the way i see it u'v 2 choices-go back to wat u wer like wen u blasted or take the road of not smoking-i know which one i'd rather be on-we all have choice in our lives and sometimes its not the easiest option to choose wats best for ourselves-good luck dude-hope u work it out-keep us posted-it'll be good to hear how ur gettin on-

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi guy welcome to the forum.

I know what you mean about buying weed, it’s such a hassle, the amount of time I must have spent “picking up” I must have spent years doing it. Don’t worry about falling off the wagon, I think almost every successful quitter does at some point before they quit for good. As they say you can’t change the past but you can change the present.

So here you are with the choice to make right now, I hope you choose to join us if it’s what you want.

Take care and please keep us posted on how it goes.

[itt]

Relapse

I was on the merry go round for a number of years.

My motto is NEVER GIVE UP TRYING TO GIVE UP.

Breaking a habit is like pushing over a fridge - you have to rock it a few times first!

[bongwater]

hi guy,

I can relate, I can't remember how many times I've quit. I would say about 5 times in the past 10 years. I guess it's a whole way of life that has to change, finding new ways to cope when life seems worthless, in the middle of a crisis. I can't say I've found the key yet. Like others have said, six months clean might be a better time as far as withdrawls go, but it may actually be more dangerous in terms of relapsing. With time the memories of how bad it was fade, and the reflex to turn to pot is a hard one to destroy. But no matter how many times, it's worth it to detox again, and to make the best out of life while we can.

[itt]

Relapse

Hi Guy,

Im with bongwater, I think that as time goes on you can forget why you gave up, and let your guard down. It has happen to me a couple of times, but each time I have learnt valuable lessons. Dont be too hard on yourself.

I have since found out it takes 1000 days to break a habit, so I now know to be on my guard for 3 years. When I think back to quitting cigarettes, the 1000 day rule rings true with me .

I hope you can quickly pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and continue where you left off.

Regards itt.