i psyched myself into smoking on the weekends . 2 days top was the deal i made to myself. just a way to cut down and realistically go about this. well at least for me. i truly think i would be able to hold that promise to myself. but there's one problem. i noticed when i smoked a few hours later that i deep inside didnt feel good about myself or life. there are underlying issues about how i feel ,but ill tell uou one thing. on day 4 of being sober i felt a slight but noticeable shit in mood and outlook. on weed. i feel high for a while, then its just empty. maybe cause i know i shouldnt be doing this. cause i know that ive done enough harm to myself and family. smoking on the weekends is no good either. who am i kidding? somehow i manage to psyche myself into thinking its okay and then i feel like i shouldnt be doing this. the drug is supposed to get you high but nowadays to be honest i just feel anxious and depressed. i guess ill start again starting today. thanks for the support guys.
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