New here on the marijuana addiction forum

[7miracles]

I've smoked pot most of my life, though I had 7 years off once and 6 years off another time. Both times I was sober my life got so much better. I've been smoking for nearly ten years straight (with a year off here, a couple of months off there). My kids are growing up and leaving and I just want to be really present and strong for them. And I want to get back my creative life and those stolen dreams! Pot steals your dreams - that ought to tell you something. So I've let my prescription run out (I'm in California) and I've got about one joint left. I quit smoking cigarettes three days ago. I'm somewhat terrified to detox pot. It's weird, when I go on vacation and don't have it, I'm okay. But as soon as I'm home, it's like pavlov's dog. How I'm going to get through this is anybody's guess. I suppose it's going to take a lot of sharing, a lot of writing and praying and willingness to sit through painful emotions. So if I can figure out how this cannabis rehab site works, I will be visiting often.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi 7miracles welcome to the forum.

I know what you mean, when I started smoking pot it was good fun for the first couple of years, but then the fun started to wear off and problems related to it started to creep up on me, until eventually life was very quickly passing me by and I was stuck watching and in a right mess.

Just out of interest what are you prescribed marijuana for?

I look forward to hearing more from you, good luck and thanks for sharing.

[jlum]

I'm new too

Today is my first real, clean day. I'm happy that I can finally post because what you said resonated deeply... My son went off to college in the fall, so we have the empty nest thing going on and my first impulse was to smoke any time I wanted, attempting always to control my use to prove to my worried husband that I wasn't really an addict. Something I heard at a meeting one time helped me a little and that was that I could now look at it not as something I no longer get to do, but as something I no longer have to do. I have some hope that this will "take", although I've had many relapses as well. I'm sick of the preoccupation, sick of feeling like I'm caught like a slave in the endless cycle of use and sick of constantly casting the no-confidence vote my way. Good luck to you, hang in there and we'll stay sober together one day at a time.