So I've read all these posts....misery seems to love company when going through all this and it helps to know we are not alone.
I'm 37 and have been smoking for around 20 years, been a heavy smoker for about 15 years. I smoked daily on average probably around 5 J's a day. Not 5 everyday....but most days. I just got sick of the hold I felt it had over me. I really enjoyed it for the relaxation (or laziness) it gave me but felt that it was comsuming my thoughts too much. When at work I couldn't wait to get home and blaze one. If I was meeting some friends for dinner, i would make sure to stop at home first so I could get high before. It's not that I felt awkward in social situations, i've always been very comfortable with being high, it just became a part of me, it's what I did. So I decided to stop and I haven't had any cravings, no moodiness, no irritability or depression. What I've experienced is this;
Day 1) Felt fantastic, very proud of myself for making this decision and actually doing it. There were thoughts of calling my dealer but I got a good handle on talking myself out of it. Slept great, like a baby....no dreams.
Day 2) Felt fantasitic again!!! No cravings at all, still so proud that I've actually stuck with it for an entire day! Keep telling myself how proud I am and that I know I can do it. Slept good, crazy murderous dreams.
Day 3) Woke up feeling great! And thankful that my dreams were just dreams! Still giving myself affirmations every day and staying strong. No cravings, no bitchyness, quite happy actually. Sleep sucked though. Tossed and turned for a few hours but still was telling myself just to muscle through it and that it would get better. I finally fell asleep and had a good 4-5 hours I guessed. No dreams.
Day 4) Woke up exhausted but still determined. I'm not going to let the tiredness be the only reason to smoke again. Mood was good all day. No cravings. Started to feel sickish in the evening but thought it was because I was so tired. Couldn't eat much but again thought it was because I was tired. Slept good, no dreams woke up for an hourish around 3 or 4 I'm guessing (I dont' like to look at the clock when I can't sleep) went back to sleep until 7.
Day 5)-today... Woke up feeling TERRIFIC! No cravings, no mood swings BUT....starting to feel a bit nauseous now.
My concern is that it's going to get bad before it gets good....OR can I assume that the worst is over for me? Is it possible to feel worse as the days go on instead of better? I'm really hoping i'm one of the lucky ones. I truley think that I smoked more out of bordem and habit triggers than any kind of dependancy on the herb. Thoughts?
I'm 37 and have been smoking for around 20 years, been a heavy smoker for about 15 years. I smoked daily on average probably around 5 J's a day. Not 5 everyday....but most days. I just got sick of the hold I felt it had over me. I really enjoyed it for the relaxation (or laziness) it gave me but felt that it was comsuming my thoughts too much. When at work I couldn't wait to get home and blaze one. If I was meeting some friends for dinner, i would make sure to stop at home first so I could get high before. It's not that I felt awkward in social situations, i've always been very comfortable with being high, it just became a part of me, it's what I did. So I decided to stop and I haven't had any cravings, no moodiness, no irritability or depression. What I've experienced is this;
Day 1) Felt fantastic, very proud of myself for making this decision and actually doing it. There were thoughts of calling my dealer but I got a good handle on talking myself out of it. Slept great, like a baby....no dreams.
Day 2) Felt fantasitic again!!! No cravings at all, still so proud that I've actually stuck with it for an entire day! Keep telling myself how proud I am and that I know I can do it. Slept good, crazy murderous dreams.
Day 3) Woke up feeling great! And thankful that my dreams were just dreams! Still giving myself affirmations every day and staying strong. No cravings, no bitchyness, quite happy actually. Sleep sucked though. Tossed and turned for a few hours but still was telling myself just to muscle through it and that it would get better. I finally fell asleep and had a good 4-5 hours I guessed. No dreams.
Day 4) Woke up exhausted but still determined. I'm not going to let the tiredness be the only reason to smoke again. Mood was good all day. No cravings. Started to feel sickish in the evening but thought it was because I was so tired. Couldn't eat much but again thought it was because I was tired. Slept good, no dreams woke up for an hourish around 3 or 4 I'm guessing (I dont' like to look at the clock when I can't sleep) went back to sleep until 7.
Day 5)-today... Woke up feeling TERRIFIC! No cravings, no mood swings BUT....starting to feel a bit nauseous now.
My concern is that it's going to get bad before it gets good....OR can I assume that the worst is over for me? Is it possible to feel worse as the days go on instead of better? I'm really hoping i'm one of the lucky ones. I truley think that I smoked more out of bordem and habit triggers than any kind of dependancy on the herb. Thoughts?
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