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[walkntalk]

Hey Guys n Girls

well im male 35 living in the uk been seriously addicted to soap bar the drug and various other things since my early 20s

i am now 60 days clean and working a 12 step rehabilitation programme where i abstain from all drugs (everything) i have an addictive personality first was food then beer then girls then dope and then anything i cud till i arrived at a point where i had lost my wife home countlesss friends and all my assets living only for dope smoking from the moment i woke till i passed out or ran out usually up to 7 grms a day,

i was sick and tired of the paranoia,anger resentment,frustration,and hiding behind dope thinking it was normal to come home every day and smoke it was the first thing i did when i was working and my only thought when near finihing work,i always managed to hold down a job and in fact wud throw myself into work when things when shit cus of my addiction.

i wud sit in the house on my own jus smoking not even mixing with other people in the end bitter and twisted with thoughts of self harm and various other stuff

like i said i am 60 days clean now i found that the first 4 weeks to be hard and have had to almost reinvent myself changing just about everything i had done for time,the last 40 weeks have been some sort of rollercoaster up down twisting and turning through my programme i have stayed clean and through shere determination oh and being scared that just one puff or spliff wud finish me thats how bad it had got it is the hardest thing i have ever had to do and i still find it tough everyday.

i will add more as and when maybe but just a little intro from me i am glad to find a rehab group specifically for cannabis/weed you guys will understand how i feel better than anybody I rekon.

peace and love to ou all and never give up giving up you can do it
walkntalk

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi walkntalk welcome to the forum.

Well done on your efforts so far you are doing really well! I can identify with your story especially the paranoia, anger, resentment and frustration and I am sure I am not the only one. It sounds like you have really been through the shyt, I did too, sadly it’s not until we hit absolute rock bottom that we have the motivation we need to quit, if only we could have got it earlier it would have saved us a lot of time and heart ache. Still what’s important is that we wake up to the situation eventually, now that you have I am sure you can start to rebuild your life.

I too am glad you have found us, I hope we can offer you some support, anytime and I mean anytime you want to get something off your chest we will be here to listen. Take care and thanks for sharing your story and please do keep us posted on how it goes.

All the best