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Just a quick note in regards to the moderation of the group. Sometimes if I am a bit short on time or if we get a lot of posts at once I may have to just skim the overall gist of the posts rather than reading them word for word before I approve them, also we all have a different perspective as to what is acceptable and thus there may sometimes be the odd post that gets through that you may feel is inappropriate. And while this doesn’t seem to happen very often if there is anything that anybody reads and feels is inappropriate then please feel free to either shoot me a PM or use the contact form to let me know and I will always be happy to take another look at it.

Please keep in mind however that a post does have to be quite bad or harmful to the group as a whole for us to delete it, I don’t like to be too heavy handed with that kind of moderation and try to reserve it for only when it is absolutely necessarily as generally I like people to be able to have their say and most things can be ironed out with dialogue and often we can all learn from it, that said if you feel something is inappropriate like I say please feel free to let me know and I will be happy to take another look.


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  • Nearly there..... but need a shove... a big one....

    marijuana withdrawal symptoms relief
    Hello everyone.

    I've been reading CannabisRehab.org for a few weeks now and have found it really helpful, but now is the time for me to post and ask for support.

    I'm a 54 year old woman and have had an on/off relationship with cannabis since teenage years. I smoked recreationally from 16 - 20 but during a 25 year marriage it did not feature in my life. I divorced 8 years ago and rediscovered my old friend. At that point I could take it or leave it - it was something that I used on high days, holidays and the occasional weekend camping trip. I took a lodger in to help with the bills and she too smoked and slowly my consumption increased. Increased to an every day habit after work and sometimes most weekend days. It was still exciting then but I was concerned that I was smoking too much and would make efforts (some more successful than others) to cut down.

    Then, in 2004 I met my future husband. A lovely lovely man who had never used drugs of any kind. I saw him as my knight in armour. The man who would save me, the man who would take me away from all of this to lead me to a wholesome life. I remember clearly the day I told him I smoked. But instead of shock and indignation, he was excited as a kid in a sweetie shop and couldn't wait to try it.

    Fast forward 5 years and what a mess it has become.

    Our smoking is now habitual and the amount we are smoking has increased to a crazy level. We don't work, we live very simply on a small pension and a large percentage of that pension goes toward our habit.

    And here's an issue that I need help with. My husband is a wonderful man, a hugely optimistic, blue sky approach guy who can see the good in everything and the bad in very little. He is handling the smoking far better than me. He's still fairly 'new' to the game and enjoys the wonderful feelings he gets when he smokes. Right now he can't see the damage it is doing to us and where it might take us.

    I on the other hand am turning into an anxious wreck. I seem to be the one who has taken on the role of looking to the future and seeing where and when the hell this will all come to an end. I have all the worst side effects from smoking now but believe myself unable to stop.

    It's taken me long time to stop 'blaming' my husband for not doing the old knight in shing armour bit and I longer time for me to come to see that my smoking is my issue. While he supports me, he really isn't at a point in his life where he wants to stop - and I can't make him - but I do need to stop myself. FOR myself, but also for our marriage. I have the foresight to see where this may all end and I need to be the one to take action and soon.

    Not stop for a day or two or even the 2 months we once managed. I need to stop for good and forever. I know that now. I can't bear the feelings, the paranoia, the lethargy, lack of exercise, excess food that I eat on a daily basis, the lack of love making and, above all the cloud that hangs over me every day and that few of my family and friends know about. I'm a dope smoker and I have a guilty guilty secret. It's not good for my soul and it needs to stop.I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and I want it to change.

    So there we are. I know what I have to do. I've downloaded information and bought the Cannabis Coach course. I have the support of my husband and as hard as I know it's going to be I know it has to be done.

    So sensible I am, yes? So calm, so sure, making intellegent choices. So why am I sitting here, terrified, close to tears and so so disappointed in myself that I've got us into this bloody mess.

    I need your help guys. I need to know how it can be in the future so I can get through the present.

    Thank you for reading my post.

    Pat

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    Hi Patricia welcome to the forum.

    It sounds like you have a great deal of insight into the nature of your situation and know what needs to be done in order to improve it, so in that respect you have the advantage and should be able to do what needs to be done, but it will take some will power. It sounds like you are at a later stage with your smoking, a stage that many of us here have found ourselves, than your partner is with his. He is still probably at that happier stage where the potential problems of smoking dope have yet to kick in, assuming that it ever will become a problem for him maybe it won’t, we can all react to it differently, I know it was like that for me for a good few years, but when they did start to kick in they did so fast and only continued to get worse until I quit, it sounds like that’s the stage you are starting to experience now. Anyway now is the time for you to act on the nature of your situation and make the changes that you need to make in order to resolve it regardless of what you partner decides to do, although it’s great that he will support you. Take the bull by the horns and do what you know you need to, I am glad you have found CannabisRehab.org helpful, we will try to give you some of the support you will need.

    So good luck, take care, thanks for sharing your story and please keep us posted on how it goes, anytime you want to get something off your chest we will be here to listen, remember you are not alone there are lots of us who are going through or have been through a similar thing out there. You can do it!

    All the best.
    Cannabis Rehab Admin

    If you wish to Use then Use, Your Body Your Choice, You're NOT a Criminal and I wish you well!

    My Choice is to be Drug Rehabilitated for 15 years because I Chose to be free from its Control on me!

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    • #3
      Thank for for such a lovely reply. I am really touched by your kindness. I know what is ahead of me and I am trying to prepare for it in the best way I can. I'm mindful of posts here about eating well, taking exercise and looking after yourself - and that's my start point.

      Right at this moment, all I feel is relief. Relief that it's all over and that I've made the first step in my recovery.

      Thanks again.

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      • #4
        Stick with it Pat !
        Once you're over the hump it's all downhill from there.
        I quit in january and after so long I wouldn't start again if you paid me, give
        yourself time to settle in to the new lifestyle and you'll realise how much better it is than the one you left behind.

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        • #5
          Thank you so much. Well done for sorting yourself out - I can imagine how you feel. Even now, 3 days in I can see huge improvements in my quality of life and can see that as time goes on and I regain more confidence and begin to meet people and become involved in activities that those improvements will only increase.

          I did something that you may think rather odd on Sunday - one day before I stopped for good. I came to see that days just passed in a blur. The essentials mostly got done but they got done in any order and usually in a panic. Eating too was hit and miss. Sometimes not eating for hours through the day but eating all night. In the past when we've tried to cut down we've been all over the place with no structure which led to anxiety which led to us skinning up. I knew I needed to address this.

          So, at 54 years of age, I made myself a timetable. I wrote down all the things that had to happen in the day and worked around them with a start and end time to the day.

          It looks something like this :-

          7am wake and have tea
          7 meditation
          8 shower, breakfast
          9 dog walk
          10 free time
          11 work (housework, paperwork, catchup)
          12 prepare and eat lunch
          13 dog walk
          14 free time
          15 work
          17 prepare and eat supper
          18 dog walk
          19 free time
          20 work
          21 free time
          22 meditation
          22.30 wash/bath, teeth brush
          23 bed

          Now, if anyone had told me to do this I would have laughed - but you know what - it's working for me. I've set alarms on the laptop to remind me when to start stuff and it feels so good - my life has a balance. I'm exercising, getting stuff done and eating properly so my blood sugar stays level.

          It wouldn't work for everyone I'm sure, but, for me, and my chaotic existence, something prescriptive was just what I needed.

          Monday was excellent and I didn't sleep too badly. Yesterday was hell on earth. Husband and I had misunderstanding that turned into 3 hours of arguing and tears.... most unlike us.. but we were just gentle with ourselves. It's taken years to get to this point - it's not going to be sorted in a day. And this morning we got got straight back onto the timetable and we're up and running.

          And do I miss the weed? Not a bit. What IS happening however, is that my mind tells me about 100 times a day that it MUST be time to get the box out and get my fingers busy - but that's just the habit. It too will pass.

          Laters.....

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          • #6
            Good to hear you're succeeding, the more success stories we have here the better. As inspiration for all those who are making the effort to quit.

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            • #7
              And here we are.... a week later and I'm still here, still breathing, still living. The world hasn't stopped and the sun is still shining even though I believed everything might in some way end when I stopped smoking.

              There have been some fairly awful bits to the week. There have been tears, wringing of hands and knashing of teeth, but the good bits have waaaaaay outnumbered the bad.

              I somehow knew that the real challenge would come at the weekend and it did. But I planned as best I could and I've made it almost to the end. Yesterday we saw 'smoking' friends. We planned for it and I felt strong enough to deal with it and I did. Funnily enough , no-one asked why I wasn't smoking. I didn't appear to be the centre of the universe that I thought I might be. Husband had two tokes and we left - I guess he's kind of enjoyed these few days away from it too. It was cool and I felt a HUGE sense of pride and achievement. Just one hurdle that has been jumped.

              I went on a bike ride today. Me, husband and dog. We cycled maybe 3 miles. Not a huge distance but 3 miles more than I've done in a few long months. We took a sandwich and some coffee and sat at the edge of the sea, munching away and enjoying the views. I remembered so many times when I sat in the flat, looking out the window at all the 'normal' people, out walking and having fun and today I was there with them. I had a feeling that might almost have been described as 'bliss', and my husband said something I don't think I'll ever forget. He said, "Its weird, all those years you took a drug hoping to find some inner peace and all you had you had to do to find it was to stop taking the drug." Weird eh?

              If you're thinking about stopping and you're reading this then I send to you my most positive thoughts. Plan for it and do it. You will not look back.

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              • #8
                Great story Patricia. I wish success to you and huby. Having a structure in life is so important. At week 5 of no pot I find myself strugling cause of the dissorder, I think I am gonna do the schedule to. keep writing it helps also.

                prepare for week 3 or 4 it gets rough. But remember about what you said being able to enjoy a normal life is bliss.

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                • #9
                  marijuana withdrawal symptoms relief
                  Wow I completely understand. I'm actually curious to see how you're doing. Did the Cannabis Coach help at all? I've tried to detox for about 2 years now and not doing very well. I'm beginning to consider some of the web/paid options online.

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