feeling desperation

[pursuit of happiness]

im still smoking. it feels like shit. i feel depressed, sad, lonely. somehow i manage to go back to this bullshit. i am starting to believe that all substances are affecting me in a very negative way. alcohol and marijuana. theyre both downers and its really screwing me up bigtime. i feel hopeless and in desperation. i know this post is short but i cant even write anymore. thanks for listening guys.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

I know there isn’t always something that anyone can say that will magically resolve the situation, sometimes you just have to ride it out, sure there may be certain things you can do, but until you are ready or able to do them you just have to weather the storm. Sometimes when I was in that situation all I wanted was somebody to say I hear you, instead of been endlessly optimistic. So I hear you mate.

That said if there is stuff that you know you can do that will improve the situation, you have to do all you can to make those things happen, as this is the only way the situation is ever going to change. But like I say we have to be either ready or able to do that and maybe we don’t always know if we can, perhaps that’s when we could really do with that optimism even if we are really struggling to take that view, like the old saying goes whether you think you can or think you can’t you are usually right. The alcohol and marijuana may well be having a downer chemically depressing effect, in which case until you stop nothing will change.

Anyway I know it’s hard when you are struggling with depression, I still have to battle with it myself and I suppose that’s what’s important continuing to fight and not giving up. So don’t give up the battle mate and don’t give up on giving up you can do it if you truly want to.

Take care

[ajh151h]

stop taking drugs and begin running you will feel much better in about two weeks and in a couple of months you will forget it even happened