Weed Love hate relationship

[Jessy123]

Weed effects ever part of my life, each day I can’t not smoke it. It feels like its trapping me. For five full years I’ve smoked it every day and I want to stop so bad but it feels like I can’t, like I’m stuck. I come from a large pothead family and it is almost the norm in my life, it is so accepted and open. Sometimes it feels like it is all i know. It’s how I cope with things because I can just get high and forget about it all. But it is affecting my relationships and i have turned into a person I hate. I worry so much about stuff that isn't that big of a deal and I can't even control my emotions. I’m trying to cutting down and trying to go with days without smoking but I feel more anxiety about everything then I have ever had. My hart starts racing and i just panic and it takes me so long to come down. I just keep replaying things over and over in my head. i feel like once I can finally stop maybe that will go down. Why is it so hard for me to quit? Sometimes i panic about the fact that i wonder if i will ever be able to quit.

[Patricia]

Hi Jesse. Give yourself a pat on the back for posting here. Just by doing that you're acknowledging that you want to stop but you need some support. That in itself is a huge achievement.

For me what worked was writing a list of how life is now and how I thought it might be without the weed. I looked at the positive stuff for days on end and I began to want it for myself. Once I made the decision to stop I never looked at the negatives again. What is done is done and there is never anything you can do about that - it's the future that is important now and that is what you need to concentrate on.

But, be gentle with yourself, it took me weeks to come to my decison, and, while I smoked, I planned. I knew I wouldn't be able to do it once I'd stopped - so I planned and made lists, and read as much as I could - and somehow I just knew when the time was right.

I'm in the very very early stages of being straight, but if I can help you any more then I'd be pleased to do so.

I shall be thinking of you.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi Jessy123 welcome to the forum.

I know what you mean about having a love hate relationship with weed, I bet a lot of people here feel the same. You will be able to detox if you truly want to but it may take some time and hard work to achieve, but I think it may be for the best as it may well be contributing to your anxiety, I would say it’s definitely worth trying for a while to see if you feel any better, the only thing is you may have to stop for a good while before it does, it can take some people quite a long time to recover psychologically, but most people do eventually. Cutting down and quitting can cause a lot of anxiety in its self, that is perfectly normal and a very common symptom of withdrawing from weed, but it will pass.

Take care, good luck and please keep us posted on how it goes.