my marijuana story (please read and comment)

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

hey guys, im in my third day of quitting a 6 year, 3 gram a day habbit and already i feel somwhat better, exercise and low carbs diet is the fastest way to get it out your system. on monday i gave my the drug to my dad and said no matter what dont give it to me, even if im close to hitting you, jus please dont give it to me, come tuesday morning i was being sucha ****ign **** to my dad, telling him that i cant quit, i need it back and if i dont get it im going to see a dealer to spend my hard earned cash so he may aswell giv it to me, he wouldnt giv in, 20 minuites later we were threatening each other with violence due to the stress of the whole situation, so eventually he gave in and just threw it at my head and he stormed out the house, i started to feel a overwhelming guilt and to my amazement i didnt smoke, i guess its different for me because when i was 16 i lost my girlfirned due to cancer and i developed a heroin habbit, he sat up all night with me watching me puke and he didnt leave my side, he is my best friend in the world and i decided he really didnt need this again in his life, its not fair on him, so much other crap has happend to me over the years and ive used a hell of alot of mdma, so i cant put my whole mental health down to pot, however its a ****ing nasty habbit that has left me with almost no friend, 3 girlfirends that i loved dearly over the years have left me because of my cannabis use, i never have money, i cant educate myself in any form whatsoever unless im at home by myself, even when im with people ive known my life i feel anxious around them, the kind of feeling u get when u meet a new friend and ure not sure if there chatting shit about you behind your back. anyway CannabisRehab.org rocks and its a really big help, im going to be reading posts everyday so if anyone wants to email me, ask questions about stuff go ahead.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

You story is very moving, it sounds like you have really been through some sh*t. It’s hard when you have taken a lot of drugs to know which is responsible for what, I think they can all take their toll and in some ways may all have a similar effect in as much as they all flood the brain with feel good chemicals, which the brain may start to rely on becoming lazy and as a result doesn’t put as much effort into making or receiving them naturally it’s self, either that or the theory that the neurons that make and receive these chemicals, get burnt out by or shut down to compensate as a result of the artificial chemicals they are receiving, or maybe it’s a combination of all those things and god knows what else, who knows, anyway the neuroscience of it aside putting too many chemicals into your brain can fu*k it up and it can take time for it to readjust to whatever extent it can after you stop taking them.

I know what you mean about the social phobia which is just another form of anxiety/paranoia I suppose, my cannabis use made it a lot worse, I got to the point where I just could not be around people at all particularly when high.

Thanks for sharing your story and please keep us posted on how it goes. Good luck and any time you want to share we will be here to listen.

Take care

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

thanks alot man, your kind words mean alot too me, still 3 in the morning and i cant sleep, how good is this theanine stuff ive been hearing about? come january im aiming to join the french foreign legion, ive come to realise i cant stay round here anymore, weeds in my face constantly so its the best option for me (most will think im mad im aware) but its what i want to do and its my only esacpe from this ****ing nightmare i call life, howver it gets easier day by day, without a doubt, i just find im so lonely at the moment and i feel so pathetic saying im lonely, none of my friends are gonna quit and none of them want me too quit, i just really dont understand how some people can be so ****ing thick and ignorant as to the damage there doing to there lives and there family around them, i finally feel im growing up, i want to be completely sorted for my 20th birthday (march 7th), like i said before i'll be reading posts constantly so please post a reply anyone, it helps me ALOT.

[Detox Me]

theanine really works I strongly suggest it. Keep at it dude. You are making the right decision to detox and as al right decisions they take a big toll. You probably will lose your user friends. So start thinking about new ones. Getting away can be part of the solution but dont think once you leave the addiction will be cured. And yes there are drugs all over the world, so the temptation will still be there and if you are not focused on eliminating your addiction and just leaving your ambiance the drugs will find you.

Stay strong.

[ajh151h]

Just know that if you don't quit now you will only damage yourself more in the future and that actually recovering will only get harder and harder. Sometimes quitting isn't the hardest part, because you've already hit rock bottom and you have to claw your way out. Don't let this happen to you.
Starting a regimented exercise program will help you out a hell of a lot. Not only will you learn mental discipline but you will be pumping blood into your brain and you will recover many times faster than without exercise.
The social anxiety your describing is common among drug users, especially the drug users, and again I think that exercise is your best bet for this problem. Like someone already said other people with addictions let this get way out of control so hopefully you will be able to combat it early on.
If your interested in joining something like the french legion for the discipline aspect, maybe you should consider taking a martial arts program. My dad's best friend was addicted to lsd and coke in the 70's and he was basically just a complete nutcase after a couple years. He joined some martial arts program that had him getting up at 5 in the morning with a bunch of other people and running barefoot on a frozen river for miles. That was just one of the many things they did to discipline themselves, and within a few years (he was an extreme case) he was able to resume living again.
You're absolutely right about your friends ruining their lives. Don't give into the peer pressure, even if it seems like they are happy with smoking pot all of the time it is because they tell themselves that. They are deluding themselves and in 10 to 15 years they will probably be on CannabisRehab.org as 30-35 year olds with a much more f*cked up story than yours.
Also, if you can afford it, combating the early stages of anxiety will be a thousand times easier with a type of antidepressants called SSRIs that have been developed in the past 15 years or so. They work against depression and anxiety at the same time and they really do help with mental stability. There isn't any reason not to take them for a short period of time, say 4 months, while you get over your problems. Go see a psychologist about it and get them prescribed if you have good health insurance.
Try to distract yourself for the time being. Watch an HBO show like the sopranos or the wire all the way through while you aren't working. Time will fly by. tvlinks surfthechannel have free tv series that you can stream from your computer if you're so inclined.
Don't lose faith in your self and your future. The