Here we go...it's my turn.

[Ronnie]

Where to start.

I'm 35 and have been smoking the drug regularly since I was about 19. I was very lost after high school and have always had very low self esteem. I smoked the drug to numb myself basically. During college I would do coke, meth, crack and whatever else I could get my hands on for the most part. For some reason the only drug I got "addicted" to was weed. I could care less pretty much if I did other drugs and I don't even drink, but for some reason I got hooked on weed. I honestly can't remember what it's like to just be me, not high. I went through job after job up until about 3 years ago. Somehow through the years I managed to get a lot of college and am only one semester short of my BA. I got a job at a Dollar store which was degrading for me in way. I would spend my money on the drug and have to steal food just to eat. I can't believe that was me. I passed the drug test there by using a friends Urine. Anyways, in September I got a call for a job that I really wanted, and I got it! They do random drug testing, and I have wanted to detox but just can't. The past month at my job has been so awesome and I really like it, but the fact that I could be drug tested and lose it all has been hovering over my head. My sister, who works for the same company, called me tonight and told me some big drug bust happened at my work, and now they are increasing the random drug testing. My heart sank. I don't want to disappoint the people I work with whom I really enjoy working with. Also, I don't want to disappoint myself in a way.

I have decided to detox smoking the drug and dealing with whatever it is that makes me want to smoke it so bad. I know it will be hard and I don't know if i can even do it. I have to though. Tomorrow will be my first day of not smoking weed.

Sorry if this post is full of "I's" but I wanted to talk to people who know what it's like. I actually don't have friends that smoke the drug I usually smoke alone. My head is full of emotions right now.

Thanks to any who read these and can offer some ideas on how to get through my first day. One day at a time is all I can cope with.

Ronnie

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi Ronnie and welcome to the forum.

I have to say and this may surprise some of you, but I actually find companies testing their employees for drugs a bit unfair and really big brother, personally I think an employee should be judged purely on their ability to do their job, certain extreme cases aside I think what an employee does in their free time is their business. If a person can smoke marijuana without it interfering with their ability to do their job, which some may, I would never say that marijuana use is necessarily a problem for every body who uses it, just for some, then I think they should mind their own business.

Anyway that aside sometimes the world can be unfair, whatever your reason for wanting to detox we are more than happy to support you and you never know maybe you will benefit in more ways than just keeping the job you love.

First things first don’t panic, it amazing the difference in experiences people can have when it comes to quitting weed, some do find it a problem but others don’t find it that much of a problem and you don’t really know which of the two you will be, you just have to suck it and see, but try to remain calm it may not be that bad for you, obviously reading the experiences on CannabisRehab.org can probably paint a pretty bleak picture, but hey we are a rehab group for people who do experience problems with quitting, so that’s the nature of the experiences you are going to get.

So try to remain calm, take it one day at a time and if you want any extra help make sure you eat a good diet, plenty of complex carbs, fresh fruit and veg, green tea, that sort of thing. Many on CannabisRehab.org are also reporting really good results with amino acid supplements like theanine. Oh and try to keep busy and get plenty of exercise.

Anyway like I say take it one day at a time and anytime you feel anxious or are finding it difficult come here and tell us about it, we will always be happy to listen.

Thanks for sharing your story with us, take care and please keep us posted on how it goes.

All the best and good luck!

[Ronnie]

Thanks for the kind words. After doing a lot of soulsearching I am kind of looking forward to not living a life where my main purpose is coming home to get high. I've also been thinking of the money I will save and what I can buy with it. Thankfully I have friends who don't smoke and my family that are my support system.

My main goal right now is to get to 30 days without smoking!

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

That sounds good, having a strong support system is really important, I hope we can be a part of it.

Take care and please keep us posted.