Having a Hard Time without Smoking Pot

[john lennon]

I got home from a night of drinking and have a strong craving to smoke. I do not have any pot and do not know anyone who can get me any so that is good. I do not know why but whenever I get any kind of buzz, from the drug or beer, I always want to take it further. I think this is an old tradition from college, I use to always get drunk with my friends and then come home and get stoned out of my mind. Part of the problem is I just came home from Denver, Colorado to Cleveland, Ohio and to say the least Ohio is not as interesting in Colorado, especially for an outdoors men. When I first came home I got stoned out of my mind all day everyday to deal with the change of lifestyle. I came back to Ohio for a good reason, to get in state tuition become a nurse and then move away again. Put it is hard to accept and the drug use to help me to forget about it. Now that I do not smoke anymore and I am left with only my thoughts it occasionally drives me nuts.

[allegory]

My thoughts drive me nuts too. I had a glass of wine last night and wanted more, and that's not like me. I could've drank a whole bottle. I sure do not want to exchange one addiction for another so I held back and had to play solitaire and random mindless games on the net for hours till I was tired enough to go to bed.

I think one of the reasons it's so difficult in the beginning is because there really are a lot of things that we shoved aside and thoughts that went unacknowledged while we smoked weed. I feel like I'm just waking up and I wasted so much time while stoned. It's hard to face. But with all the energy and clarity I will gain I can make up for that lost time. It's better late than never.

If online games is your cup of tea I highly recommend that. Especially ones where you can interact with other people. It keeps you busy and wastes a lot of time.

Good luck today.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

I know exactly what you mean, I too use to find it hard to stop whatever the buzz was drink, pot, whatever. I also know what you mean about wanting to block out your thoughts too, I also use to use to escape my own mind.