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Hello everyone,
Just thought I would stop by and give an update as to how I have been doing,
Last I posted here I was 7-10 days clean and feeling better, had met someone and decided to detox for good.
Well . . . . after about 10 days the girl I met turned out to be a horrible person and not someone I wanted to spend time with (long story) I was really at this point in the fight or flight section of my rehabilitation and I decided to flight .. . . . . I relapsed, smoked
This alone made me feel horrible, I had been doing so well and a little trauma came along and totally messed up my head to the point where I ran out and got high again to just to feel normal.
The good news; I actually for the first time had a moment of clarity, I really looked from the outside and saw how this ugly cycle was affecting my life,
I decided that drastic measures must be taken:
stopped smoking the drug and cigs
cut out ALL friends that still used pot
immediately begun to exercise regularly
classes at the university begun
met someone new !
Well, here I am three months clean and feeling much better about my situation, I am saving money and planning on getting my own place soon. I have excellent grades this semester (the constant class work really helped keep my mind active) and I am feeling less and less need to get high everyday. I am by no means cured, this I think is where I had been making many mistakes in the past. I think that allowing myself to feel "all better" allowed me to let my guard down around friends, which of course led to relapse. Everyday is a struggle and I am constantly reminded of the person that I am (not "used to be") And for the first time in a long time I feel a true sense of happiness.
Thanks for all of the support
Just thought I would stop by and give an update as to how I have been doing,
Last I posted here I was 7-10 days clean and feeling better, had met someone and decided to detox for good.
Well . . . . after about 10 days the girl I met turned out to be a horrible person and not someone I wanted to spend time with (long story) I was really at this point in the fight or flight section of my rehabilitation and I decided to flight .. . . . . I relapsed, smoked
This alone made me feel horrible, I had been doing so well and a little trauma came along and totally messed up my head to the point where I ran out and got high again to just to feel normal.
The good news; I actually for the first time had a moment of clarity, I really looked from the outside and saw how this ugly cycle was affecting my life,
I decided that drastic measures must be taken:
stopped smoking the drug and cigs
cut out ALL friends that still used pot
immediately begun to exercise regularly
classes at the university begun
met someone new !
Well, here I am three months clean and feeling much better about my situation, I am saving money and planning on getting my own place soon. I have excellent grades this semester (the constant class work really helped keep my mind active) and I am feeling less and less need to get high everyday. I am by no means cured, this I think is where I had been making many mistakes in the past. I think that allowing myself to feel "all better" allowed me to let my guard down around friends, which of course led to relapse. Everyday is a struggle and I am constantly reminded of the person that I am (not "used to be") And for the first time in a long time I feel a true sense of happiness.
Thanks for all of the support
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