Does the prospect of quitting Scare you?

[Detoxer]

I have 3 joints left, i'm gonna smoke them and then stop

i have smoked it everyday for about 10 years... its crippling my life. i love it and hate it. i know that it has a crazy hold over me and is ****ing up my life, my emotions are all over the place and i get stressed over little things, it is having a generally negative effect on most areas of my life.. yet i when im high its good, and despite the negativity and all the down sides i am genuinely fightened to stop..

its so entrenched in my mind, routine and daily activities that its seems like quitting is a big step into the unknown, im 24.. so was still a child at 14 when i started and therefore my experiences growing up and becoming an adult have all been under the influence

i need to quit, desperately. i see other people and think about how they're happy and don't need to be stoned to function and enjoy things.. and that is a good inspiration but still its like the addiction is always allowing me to justify buying more

does anyone understand?

[sensymila]

You are right, when Im thinking of the future with no joints at all. It scares me a bit. Until now, my life was quite simply. After school I met my friends and smoked the drug with them. After about 3 hours everybody went back home and this is how I lost 3 years. Now, I spend more hours at home, than I used to. A good thing is that I begun to meet new people and go out to pubs with them. We all need to think positively about our future. My marihuana quitting, I treat like Im starting a new chapter in my life. Im very happy of those "highs" I had with my friends. But now is the time for changes. I have to think of my future.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi Hummer and welcome to the forum.

It’s perfectly natural to be scared over quitting, I know was and I know plenty of people here feel the same. But try not to panic too much, just how difficult people find it can vary significantly, some rally do struggle but others don’t find it that bad, it may not be as bad as you think, you just have to suck it and see how it goes. If you do really struggle there are a number of things you can do to try to make sure you hit the ground as gently as possible, for example and I know this isn’t necessarily the best option for everybody some find it easier just to detox cold turkey, but you could try gradually reducing the amount you smoke for a little while before you quit, that way it may be less of a shock to your system. You could also try various nutritional supplements, some people here have found theanine (natural amino acid) to be very helpful, there are also many other tips and strategies you can apply for more information on these check out this post.

Anyway try not to worry too much you will get through it and we will be here whenever you need us, feel free to lean on us as much as you like. Good luck, I am sure you can do it, take care and please keep us posted on how it goes.

[Detoxer]

i totally relapsed, i smoked most of the week away.

i feel like such a loser for giving up immediately, but i find it really hard.

when junkies quit heroin they tend to have a really heavy amount just before they go in rehab, when i plan to detox the drug i buy a load and have a big smoke and im always like 'this is the last smoke, gotta enjoy it'... and then the next night im in the same situation

its crazy, i don't know what's up with me... but i guess realising how hard it is to detox shows me just how far this the drug habbit has got totally out-of-hand

[Imperfection]

Reflections

Hummer; I'm with you bro, i not only understand what you're going through, but have been through exactly the same thing...

It is me;- its quite hard to get away from the stoner stereotype, I've always been fairly 'proud' of being the passive, chilled out, non-treatening type - I'm not nescessarily scared of losing that 'me', for the smoothness of the waters hides the turmoil in the deeps, but heck am I afraid of change - It's who shall i become? Which direction will be worthwhile to persue? While this addictive habit is a burden, its steady weight is homely and re-assuring, there is no doubt in my mind that this burden is pulling me down further than it is practical and necessary for my everyday life. It's funny, because you can set it all out on a pair of scales and see, with no room for doubt that, to be blunt, its f***in stupid.

Chronic lack of finance, incurable lethargy, heavy head, disorganised affairs, isolation, etc. It truly makes you wonder why one cannot simply, with a loud sigh and wave of the hand dispell this curse forever. Don't think I haven't tried;

I'm a cunning b*****d, when it comes down to getting my way with cannabis, and it amuses me and shocks me in equal measures that I am the only one I have to outwit. Needless to say, I am cleverer than myself; but only when it comes to championing my waster lifestyle. Countless times I have professed, in all earnestness, "No more!" - and the very next day i'll have crumbled, that very earnestness transforming into the desire to get more. Have you ever sat there and debated with yourself over whether to go ahead and pick up? I'm sure i've been through all the arguments (few pro, mainly con) with myself, have come therefore to the rational decision that I won't, and before the hour is up i'll be smoking the next joint. It's as if the devil on my shoulder has taken autocratic control, and the angel of concience is only kept around for the sake of appeasing on the remaining decisions of the day. And since i'm too busy smoking dope, that poor angel will see very little action.

Stopping. I can see it, i can understand it, i can appreciate it. I've just not been able to do it. Why?
Because man is his own worst enemy.

It has come, the time is neigh, to give up on this foolish habit, and remember; no man is an island - if you, like me, want to be serious about quitting, tell the person whos opinion you care of most that you are so; make pride, that deadly sin, your very good friend.

I will be back to ramble about experiences; the material on this cannabis rehab site is what has set me off on the quest for purity again.

Till then, I bid thee farewell, fine fortune, and a severe lack of ganja!

Mj

[Detoxer]

Hi MJ

thanks for your post, I can relate to everything you say.. i know my reply is a few weeks after you wrote here, but i felt a bit embarressed to come back here coz ive been smoking since i last wrote here

but i'm currently on day number three without weed, i feel sweaty.. my heartbeat feels faster, ive had bad dreams and i am bored and i guess i need someone around to distract me

i have about 2grams of the drug here with me that ive managed to not touch for a few days, but for those 2 days i went back to my parents to have a little detox... but now day 3 im back at my place (where my the drug is and i can smoke inside)

part of me just accepts that re-lapse is inevitable and therefore im subconciously justifying why i should go and have that splif

i have medical reasons to stop, as my blood pressure is a little too high and smoking is bad for blood-pressure.. yet i still go back and toke!!

I totally get what you mean about constantly being in a shit financial state, and how being a stoner just makes all my life disorganised and messy but after years it kinda becomes normal and just start believing thats just how life is

i dunno, i think tonight is difficult and i really ****ing want it. and typing this is making me thing of justifications to get stoned


i sometime wonder if i explain to doctor then maybe i could get some valium or something while i try to quit, but i guess i'd become addicted to valium then lol

anyway, thanks for understanding and i'll let ya know how things go!

[Detoxer]

i am on day number 8 now!

ive smoked some cigarettes and drank beer on a couple of nights

this isnt easy, i still have some the drug and still can't bring myself to bin it!

[TheDude]

I have 3 joints left, i'm gonna smoke them and then stop

i have smoked it everyday for about 10 years... its crippling my life. i love it and hate it. i know that it has a crazy hold over me and is ****ing up my life, my emotions are all over the place and i get stressed over little things, it is having a generally negative effect on most areas of my life.. yet i when im high its good, and despite the negativity and all the down sides i am genuinely fightened to stop..

its so entrenched in my mind, routine and daily activities that its seems like quitting is a big step into the unknown, im 24.. so was still a child at 14 when i started and therefore my experiences growing up and becoming an adult have all been under the influence

i need to quit, desperately. i see other people and think about how they're happy and don't need to be stoned to function and enjoy things.. and that is a good inspiration but still its like the addiction is always allowing me to justify buying more

does anyone understand?

I understand all too well. I'm one year the drug free now.

I smoked for about 13 years, 6 of which were every day, compulsive smoking. When the bag was gone, and no connections to get more, I felt I had no reason to be happy whatsoever. When I was carrying, I was great, or so I thought.

Some of my experience with every day pot smoking:

-Depression
-Isolation
-Inability to enjoy things without being high
-Only hanging out with friends who got high
-Letting school go to get high
-Fear of answering the phone or opening my door
-Social anxiety
-Panic attacks (4 very bad ones)

I am also predisposed to depression, and marijuana exacerbates/plays a causal role to that in many studies, so it makes sense my depression worsened.

Now, life isn't perfect (Really!?), but its one hell of a lot better. I still am trying to break the mold of my daily smoking routine. It's amazing how the isolation can still creep up a year later, and I have to be mindful of losing myself in other addictions (internet, food, etc). It's all the same problem, really.

It gets better. Life gets richer. There is freedom in being able to experience life without having to get high all the time, no matter what claptrap arguments everyday potsmokers have for me about "freeing my mind". I was imprisoned, and once I quit for a few weeks, it scared me to see how many places in my life the drug controlled.