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Hello,
I have not posted in a while. I have been successful in quitting so far, it has been 2 weeks and I have not smoked. My cravings for the drug have come back today. My room mate got rushed to the hospital to have his appendix removed and without him around the apartment all I can think about is smoking. I am thinking about driving to a guy a know I can get it from that lives 1 hour away from my house. I have not had this hard of a struggle since I quit, so it has to be because I am alone. Normally I do not even think about smoking if my room mate is around. If I do I always have him around to support as to why I should not smoke. I popped in a movie to try and escape into the plot rather than my extreme desire to smoke.
I know that I am not going to drive an hour to get it tonight because that will ruin how far I have come. I know if I drive down there I will not buy an eighth, I will buy a half or an ounce but damn this is hard right now.
I guess I should look at this like a test, passing will be going to bed tonight and not smoking pot, failing will be driving to by the drug in the middle of the night. It is hard to be strong sometimes.
Best wishes to everyone on the path to quitting and hope you had a good thanksgiving.
Jon
I have not posted in a while. I have been successful in quitting so far, it has been 2 weeks and I have not smoked. My cravings for the drug have come back today. My room mate got rushed to the hospital to have his appendix removed and without him around the apartment all I can think about is smoking. I am thinking about driving to a guy a know I can get it from that lives 1 hour away from my house. I have not had this hard of a struggle since I quit, so it has to be because I am alone. Normally I do not even think about smoking if my room mate is around. If I do I always have him around to support as to why I should not smoke. I popped in a movie to try and escape into the plot rather than my extreme desire to smoke.
I know that I am not going to drive an hour to get it tonight because that will ruin how far I have come. I know if I drive down there I will not buy an eighth, I will buy a half or an ounce but damn this is hard right now.
I guess I should look at this like a test, passing will be going to bed tonight and not smoking pot, failing will be driving to by the drug in the middle of the night. It is hard to be strong sometimes.
Best wishes to everyone on the path to quitting and hope you had a good thanksgiving.
Jon
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