Epiphany

[Inpatient Outpatient]

Well it's almost the new year and I am thinking and realizing many things. I have come along way. On the 26th I will be sober from the drug for a month and it is great and I am loving it. It makes me see life in a very simple and great way. So snaps .

Of course since I have been going through a break up for almost almost 3 years, it hasn't been easy, but having my family and friends (whats left of them) and you guys here for me, it's been easier then I expected.

What's been really hard is the fact that my ex was a one woman man. I always saw him that way and that's one of the many things I loved about him. Now that I look back, he never was like that. The true colours have come out many times and I was two dumb and blind to see it. He hung out with chicks behind my back, flirted with them a lot, hid things about them a lot and when ever we have hard times, like a break or we broke up, he always goes running to them, loving them and treating them like they are his best mates. So the epiphany I am just having today is that he isn't any different from any other guy. I would love to find a one woman man as I am a one man woman.

That's a feature that my ex liked about me and I never changed that. He was always first and I never made or had any male friends just for him, and that is a feature I could use to my advantage later on in life, as it isn't a common feature in woman now days.

I saw him as many great things, but each day I am sober, the more I see what he truely was, not the man for me. I know he is man *****ing around with every chick he probbly can and I don't know how I couldn't see that before. He's done it every time we have had problems and I know for a fact he is doing it now, going out with them partying, having online dates probably, and I acutely don't care. It's weird, like when I used to think about it, it would make me sad, but now, I am just like meh, because there's nothing special about him that I am loosing. He's just like every other guy that obsesses over female friends.

My family had a Christmas party yesterday and there was a guy named Uncle Pete there. He was more baked then my mothers pie. The guy looked awful and his skin looked horrible. He looked like he didn't have a shower in a long time. He barely socialized with anyone and had major munchies. He reeked of pot, and his car smelt like pot. He left often to have a joint to keep that oven baking. I just saw so much of what you guys are talking about in CannabisRehab.org in him.

I have also met a nice guy named Chris He is 25 and he lives in the area where I live. He has his own car and loves to cuddle. He owns an awesome rottie/ridgeback mix. He has a close bond with his dog, which I like. We are just taking it slow for now, but we are planning to have our first hang out soon to see where it goes. He is very sucsesful and owns his own company
This is like a hole new life as I haven't dated in almost 3 and a half years. Its going to be exciting. I hope this guy is a respectful one and I hope he doesn't smoke any the drug :P I have a good feeling about this one, so everyone wish me luck

This is just my venting, I don't expect anyone to reply to this. Anyways, have a happy Christmas everyone, and a great new year!

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Well done Nakisai on been sober from the drug for a month you are doing really well, I am glad you are finding things better, I am also glad you have met someone new, I am sure moving on emotionally from your passed relationship will do you good, it can be hard to move on from the past sometimes, but until we have to do so in order to enjoy the future. Anyway it’s great to hear how well you are doing, keep up the good work.

Take care, thanks for keeping us posted and merry Christmas.