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Just a quick note in regards to the moderation of the group. Sometimes if I am a bit short on time or if we get a lot of posts at once I may have to just skim the overall gist of the posts rather than reading them word for word before I approve them, also we all have a different perspective as to what is acceptable and thus there may sometimes be the odd post that gets through that you may feel is inappropriate. And while this doesn’t seem to happen very often if there is anything that anybody reads and feels is inappropriate then please feel free to either shoot me a PM or use the contact form to let me know and I will always be happy to take another look at it.

Please keep in mind however that a post does have to be quite bad or harmful to the group as a whole for us to delete it, I don’t like to be too heavy handed with that kind of moderation and try to reserve it for only when it is absolutely necessarily as generally I like people to be able to have their say and most things can be ironed out with dialogue and often we can all learn from it, that said if you feel something is inappropriate like I say please feel free to let me know and I will be happy to take another look.


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  • Weed is no cool.

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    Hi guys. Well I cannot overemphasize how much I feel the above statement. Just now I've been reading the online information on pot addiction and I see that I am a textbook case. I have all the faults of pot addiction i.e the all pervading anxiety that follows you everywhere coz you're ALWAYS thinking about the drug and when you'll next smoke, the social isolation coz ALL YOUR TIME is spent smoking the drug and watching terribly boring television, the general slothfulness, which is just fancy speak for acting like a lazy bum, the total lack of drive to pursue any of the good things in life, the terrible see-saw of thought/emotions of "Never again Will I ever smoke this absolutely horrible drug again!" to "Man, the sweet cool chill of this awesome morning needs to be blessed by some funky green," and all the crazy thoughts in between.

    I can describe my present state as one of silent suffering. I especially abhor my lack of resolve as regards this issue. I've just read that that means I'm in a "pre-contemplative stage where I'm experiencing ambivalent feelings towards my 'drug problem'". Problem is I've been smoking for 6 years (I'm 22) and I've been trying to detox for the last two or so, so I figure I should pretty much be past 'pre-contemplation'. I've not had any major success to report but I did manage to stop for at least a month before and another time for one and a half weeks which was especially tranquil, I remember. Otherwise, my routine has been: wake at 7, smoke, waste-rest-of-day regretting-it-and-smoke-further-since-you-already-tripped-up-anyway. It been like this day in and day out for years. I especially despise what I choose to call the 'threshold feeling' which is when you are like you can feel the solution is tantalizingly near yet it frustratingly never reveals itself. This is because I know for a fact that the drug does bad things in my life and the simple solution is to not light up anymore. Yet I cant make that decision to save my own life.

    Thus I have been forced to confront the possibility that I may just be a jelly-backed wimp with no backbone or testicular fortitude of any kind, since here we have a problem that has slowly engulfed every aspect of your life and further threatens your very well-being and prosperity,and here I am not doing anything about it. That must mean that I am not a real man, doesn't it? Since we know real men go after the good things, real men make practical, sensible decisions don't they? So this must mean I have tiny nuts. Coz I always choose the easy, wimpy, neurotic, and mundane, over the challenging, brave, confident and sensible. My inability to cultivate the resolve to better my life has led to a very steady descent of my self image. I normally have feelings of general worthlessness and undeserving. Consequently, as painful as it is for me to admit, I haven't had a girl for a long time leading to very real sexual frustrations.

    Another aspect of this thing that I see is the obsessiveness. I think about this 'problem of mine' CONSTANTLY. I have known no peace in my head for a long time. My thoughts run in a continuous 'Weed-Loop' and I never do anything without thinking if I should just smoke the drug instead. I try, but I cant remember what it was like to think about things like normal people without the intrusive the drug thoughts incessantly nudging at you. I also think about my 'addiction' alot. I fear that I may be somehow addicted to 'my problem' and that is why I am like this. Does this make any sense to any one?

    Finally, typical of all 'addicts', I can talk about my 'wasted potential'. I am tall, handsome, athletic, intelligent, sensitive and a host of other good adjectives. I like to draw and am pretty good. I also like guitar and I think I can be very good in that also not to mention a natural singing ability. I also harboured dreams of becoming a writer someday. Needless to say that evil the drug has ensured that I haven't practiced any of my passions in a long time and so I'm in a permanent state of block. I've come to realise that potential isn't worth very much on its own so, the above statements about my passions don't and will never mean a thing if they are not EXPLOITED. So the thoughts that I romantically hold of 'But I have so much 'potential' are useless in themselves. and thats that.

    Thanks for letting me get this of my chest.

  • #2
    Hi,

    I have a very similar story to you, I related to your post and I wanted to tell you that you are so ready to quit. I smoked for 16 years everyday and I have been sober for 8 days now. I convinced myself that quitting would be the hardest thing in the world to do. I'll do it tomorrow was what I used to tell myself everyday, but last week I really had just had enough. Sounds to me like you are at the exact same stage now.

    This site is amazing, just to know that there are people who are going through the same thing as you and they are achieving it means that you can as well. I have some advice for you. You sound like a really intelligent person and the only thing holding you back is your addiction to weed. You should try to use this to your advantage, you said that you are a good writer. I have an idea, why don't you write down your feelings and make a sort of diary of each step of the process of quitting the weed? Maybe you can help people in the future, but in the short term it will give you something to do to keep yourself busy.

    I think you should smoke what you have, then throw away all your paraphernalia, get rid of your dealers number, tell your friends that you are serious and you are quitting and then start your masterpiece.

    I wish you all the luck in the world, and just remember we are all here.
    Together we can do it.
    Together we can do it

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    • #3
      yes I do believe you can quit if you are having these feelings. I just left my boyfriend because he is just a plain old bump on a log. No fun, never wants to go anywhere or do anything, is afraid of social situations, wont ever take me on dates, and is just a general BORE! I have told him all of these things and that he has basically wasted my time.
      I am in school to be somebody and I dont want a family with someone that is so lazy and unambitious.
      And I KNOW its because of the drug. He has been doing it daily for 10 years now and Im the third girl that has left him because of it.
      So...I think its great you realize whats going on with you.
      I know once he finally realizes what hes done to his life, it may be too late.
      Dont like drugs control your life. I know I wont.
      I took back my life and you can too. It all starts with the willingness to change and be what you want to be.

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      • #4
        a hardening of resolve

        At Cath.
        Thanks for the support and I'm rooting for you too. About that diary, I had the very same idea the same day I wrote the previous post. And infact I've already started on it. I'm up to one part of it, I'm writing it as a way harden my resolve to quit. I'm using my list of reasons to detox as chapter headings. I have seven. Unfortunately though, I haven't set a quit date yet. But I will soon. I want to put all my energy into making something that will work for me and maybe someone else in a similar situation. A catchy name I thought was, 'A Chronic Chronicle'. He he.
        As soon as I finish I'll let people know.

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        • #5
          well they say great minds think alike don't they.

          I wish you the best of luck, don't leave it to long till you quit though or you will end up putting it off forever, remember tomorrow never comes. There really is no time like the present. you have already made the big decision to detox and as long as you keep yourself busy (by writing) then its a lot easier than you imagine it will be. I promise. I'm on day 9 now and I didn't think that I would be able to do it

          You will have to send me a copy of your book to read it has a catchy title, like it. I look forward to seeing your next post telling us it is day 1. Just remember that anytime you are struggling there is always somebody here who is going through it with you and who is probably feeling exactly the same as you.

          Good luck
          Together we can do it

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          • #6
            Originally posted by Unregistered View Post
            Another aspect of this thing that I see is the obsessiveness. I think about this 'problem of mine' CONSTANTLY. I have known no peace in my head for a long time. My thoughts run in a continuous 'Weed-Loop' and I never do anything without thinking if I should just smoke the drug instead. I try, but I cant remember what it was like to think about things like normal people without the intrusive the drug thoughts incessantly nudging at you. I also think about my 'addiction' alot. I fear that I may be somehow addicted to 'my problem' and that is why I am like this. Does this make any sense to any one?
            Hi. You are describing my mental processes exactly....obsessively thinking about "the problem of the drug addiction". Strange, isn't it? That loop has been spinning in my head for much of the past 8 years (been smoking about 15 years). Even though I was able to keep pretty productive as a smoker, still no peace. Definately wasted potential, though. I did manage to detox a few times for a week, a month, and almost two months, but then started to get depressed and went back to it.

            Well, now I'm on day 4 and I'm feeling more peaceful in my mind than I have in a long time. I wish the same for you!! That self-defeating mental loop is surely hell. When I tried to detox in the past, I didn't seek any outside assistance, and I realize now that that was definately my undoing. I found this cannabis rehab site on day 1, and it helped me to get through some major cravings, just reading people's stories. I don't feel like an isolated weirdo now. You know, I haven't really had any cravings since day 1. This is coming form a lady who was toking from dawn to dusk. Past experience tells me that this could easily change (and probably will)...so it's good to start a habit of coming here everyday.

            I wish you much luck in your process. You are fortunate to be coming to this point at a relatively young age, because the years just flow by (38 now, been thinking I should quit since I was 30). In the past years that I have been thinking about quitting, I have also tried many times to convince myself that the addiction is ok and just to accept myself w/o being so critical...after all, this is a crazy world, most people are addicted to something, yada yada yada... but ultimately this line of reasoning will never satisfy. It doesn't sound like you will be satisfied with yourself either until you move on from this...I know you can do it! May you have a clear head soon!

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            • #7
              Hi guys, first off a big welcome to you newcomers, we really are very pleased to have you and honoured you have chosen to share your journey with us.

              I know what you mean about obsessiveness, then again I do have pretty bad ocd, which in fairness was there before the weed, but like with a lot of mental health problems when my the drug use and detox was at its worst exacerbated it and made it a lot worse. When you are further down the line in the process things should calm down and start to pass.

              Take care, thanks for sharing and please keep us posted. Good luck to you all!
              Cannabis Rehab Admin

              If you wish to Use then Use, Your Body Your Choice, You're NOT a Criminal and I wish you well!

              My Choice is to be Drug Rehabilitated for 15 years because I Chose to be free from its Control on me!

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              • #8
                Hi I was just wondering how the novel is coming on?
                Have you set a quit date yet?
                Keep us posted
                Cath
                Together we can do it

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                • #9
                  Day 0

                  Hi fellow sojourners.

                  I have not been posting because I have still been doing that crazy thing of smoking my last one everyday and I didn't want to taint this cannabis rehab site with my neurosis. Somehow its still easier to wake and bake than fight with myself in the morning. I am an early riser and the breezy mornings seem to me to be made for the weed. I absolutely hate that I feel so romantic about this. This usually means that I over smoke because I always manage to convince myself that this is my last smoke. After lighting up, I always take a mental snapshot of myself with a joint and say, "So, you're still here, doing this?," And then I proceed to smoke myself hoarse. I'm sad to say I'm still here, doing this, and its nuts.

                  As I said I don't want to taint this cannabis rehab site with my failures as I see so many people are overcoming and I mean to be one of them. So its day Zero for me.

                  (PS: I had registered as Leo-King but I can't seem to post any messages under my name and I haven't received any confirmation e-mail)

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                  • #10
                    hi, new life 24 is having the same problem posting messages, speak to the rehab group board blogger they are really helpfull they should be able to sort it out for you. I think that you are at the point that you are ready to quit, you are having a battle with your addiction, at the moment the addiction is winning, it wont always be that way. I have faith in you.

                    They say tomorrow never comes..... ,make tomorrow come. You are in control of your life. It will be the best decision you will ever make.

                    Remember we are always here
                    good luck xxx
                    Together we can do it

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                    • #11
                      Hi guys and a big welcome to Leo King it’s great to have you.

                      Sorry about the trouble some of our new members are having posting, we may be having a problem with our email confirmation system, we are working on it at the moment and trying to get it fixed.

                      Well done on your all your efforts folks, hang in there and you will get there. Don’t worry Leo King a bit of neurosis is perfectly understandable and cool with us, it may be a tough time right now but it will pass.

                      Take care guys and please keep us posted
                      Cannabis Rehab Admin

                      If you wish to Use then Use, Your Body Your Choice, You're NOT a Criminal and I wish you well!

                      My Choice is to be Drug Rehabilitated for 15 years because I Chose to be free from its Control on me!

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                      • #12
                        Just to update you according to our tech guy if there was a problem things should now be working as they ought to be, the confirmation emails have been resent to users who were not able to post, if you have not received them remember to check your spam folder as they can sometimes end up there by mistake.

                        Take care all
                        Cannabis Rehab Admin

                        If you wish to Use then Use, Your Body Your Choice, You're NOT a Criminal and I wish you well!

                        My Choice is to be Drug Rehabilitated for 15 years because I Chose to be free from its Control on me!

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                        • #13
                          Day 1 again. I'm here

                          Well, I'm here. I havent smoked today and I feel calm and relaxed. I stiil feel the desire form a far but I have realised that if I dont smoke I'll feel better than if I do. I'm posting this as a recording of how calm I feel right now.

                          What I can say that I have observed with myself and this use of the drug is what I can term as a lack of spirituality. And I'm not talking about anything religious. Simply a disconnection with who you are as a person. A poor self examining ability. This means that you do not know your true needs as a human being and so you do not respond accordingly. My needs as a human being do not include drugs. Infact drugs cause misery in you and destroy you, but your low levels of awareness and the disconnect blind you to this. You need to get in touch with yourself and learn how to respond properly to your true needs. This requires patience. This process of quitting, I think, will make me more in know of myself since it lets me sink inside myself and listen to what I am feeling/thinking. I'm learning a lot.

                          A thought that I'm thinking is "I will feel better with myself if I don't smoke, than if I do." And, "I can handle the desire no matter how strong it may come." These two thoughts are what I will focus on today and get through Day 1.

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                          • #14
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                            Hi Leo,
                            Congratulations on day one, you can do it.
                            How is the novel?
                            Keep going, we are all here with you
                            Together we can do it

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