goodbye mary jane

[time2quit]

Hello Everyone,

My name is Mike and I'm a smoker of 7 years. Today is the day I quit smoking weed.

I have been wasting my money on the garbage they call the drug for too long now. It got to the point where I lost my job last year, and have not had a new one since. I lie to my partner telling her I'm looking for jobs and that it's the recession stopping me from working, but really I'm at home smoking my life away until I run out and get the energy to go buy more, that has also been my only reason for leaving the house the past few years, actually everything in life I ever had interest in is now gone, and the drug has become the only thing I get up for.

I have lost all my friends except the ones who sell pot, I have alienated myself from family, I have spent countless dollars I don't have, I have made my partner bear the cost of my addiction, I've finally had enough!

I have tried quitting several times only to a few hours later re-up, and by a few hours I mean I'll run out at 8am and have a new bag in my hand by 10am acting like I've been out all day. I have tried the cutting down method, but I always end up smoking what I normally smoke, so I have decided that cold turkey is the only/best way to get this stuff out of my system.

I really have no where or nobody else to turn to, so I am very thankful this cannabis rehab site allows people like me to be heard. I'm so scared of what I'm going to experience in the next few weeks, I feel so alone, I keep questioning myself making sure I'm doing the right thing, which I know I'm doing, but my head keeps insisting it needs weed, and its only day 1!

I have experienced all the detox symptoms before, I think that's what has me so worried this time around, but this time around I'm gonna do something I never did before, quit this stuff for good! I have to my life needs it!

I feel better just by typing this...

I thank all the people who read this and hope all of you make it to the end of the road to recovery!

[Finding my Center]

I totally relate to your story. I was a heavy smoker for 16 years, I have been sober for 8 days now and it has not been as difficult as I imagined. The secret is to keep yourself busy. (I have been reading and watching movies.) I have found that my relationship is 100% better in the last week.

You will have some very strange dreams but they will pass, and you may feel sweaty and uncomfortable but I recommend plenty of hot baths, they relax you. And green tea is really good at detox and it tastes pretty good as well.

I wish you all the luck in the world and all I can say is when you are struggling come on here and read the posts. i am always here as well as all the rest of the people who have made the decision like us to detox the weed.

Together we can do it, just take it one day at a time.

[DRC]

Good for You Mike!

Hey, just wanted to say that you are making the right decision (as you know!). I know how you feel about wasting your time on weed... guess a lot of us have been doing that, and feeling bad about ourselves at the same time. I smoked for the last 15 years...probably throughout the day everyday for the past eight years. I have tried to detox numerous times before (really I would think about it everyday), ending in failure. Very much a hermit now...... But, I'm happy to say that I'm on day 3 of no the drug and feeling not too bad. I've been coming to this cannabis rehab site a few times each day and reading people's posts. Hearing other's stories is REALLY helping me with my determination if I get hit with strong cravings.

Sounds like you're where I'm at - enough's enough! Right now our minds are not our friends, so we can't trust them and all their crazy talk. A wise friend told me that whenever we remove something from our lives, like a habit, a space is left there. In the presence of that void we can feel very lonely, empty and scared. But we CAN find other things to fill the space that the drug once took. I don't mean substances, but things of substance that will give meaning to our life in a real way. I am putting extra energy into expanding my garden this year because gardening is something I feel a passion for, and I feel this will be a good focus, especially as I can focus much better when I'm not high! I have signed up for a Master Gardener course, which starts next week. I'm hoping I'll meet some new people with similar interests. Meeting people is not easy for me, probably one reason why I turned to the drug in the first place, and also why I know I have to try. I'm sure you have a passion deep inside even though I don't know you. You can find it.

With regards to the yucky detox symptoms, in the past when I would stop I would always have insomnia. This time I decided to stop coffee too (something I wanted to do anyway), and I have had no problem sleeping the last two nights. I've been sweating like a pig and having crazy dreams, but I've slept.

Anyway, good luck to you and good luck to me...if other people can quit and change their lives, then we can, too.

[Vixsin]

Good for you!

Today is Day 4 for me and boy did I have some strange dreams last night!!!! But overall I feel good. I am looking forward to my life without the drug in it. I am looking forward to being a better me. I have had some of the night sweats as well but I know that all of this stuff will pass in time.

I just wanted to post to say job well done to everyone who has made the big decision to quit. This is a great road that we have all put ourselves on!!!