Hi I'm Dan, Iv been smokin since I was 13, it became a habbit at 15, and now im almost 20 and it has over-run my life. Sometimes I feel I cant handle the real world so I get stoned then carry on with my day, not really caring about what im doing. I want to stop this because it is causing my depression to get to a point where i cant handle it anymore and im breaking down in tears at work over nothing at all. Aswel as having insomnia (the reason i used it from 15).
If I dont smoke I either dont sleep at all for days on end, or when I do manage to sleep I have horrible dreams.
The other problem is that I always just feel so much better when im stoned, its when im not stoned I have problems. I hate that I love it so much.
I tried to stop cold turkey before, this only caused my drinking problem to get to a dangerous level, so i started again. Iv now quit drinking and my urge to smoke is so over-whelming.
If i work hard i can get it down to my bedtime sedating spliff, but I can never quite let go of it without heavy sleep aids and I dont want to trade 1 addiction for another.
Kinda stuck in a rut.
(sorry the post is so long)
If I dont smoke I either dont sleep at all for days on end, or when I do manage to sleep I have horrible dreams.
The other problem is that I always just feel so much better when im stoned, its when im not stoned I have problems. I hate that I love it so much.
I tried to stop cold turkey before, this only caused my drinking problem to get to a dangerous level, so i started again. Iv now quit drinking and my urge to smoke is so over-whelming.
If i work hard i can get it down to my bedtime sedating spliff, but I can never quite let go of it without heavy sleep aids and I dont want to trade 1 addiction for another.
Kinda stuck in a rut.
(sorry the post is so long)
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