I just found this forum, and im glad to see something like this. the following is a brief glimpse into my experiences. You may read, comment, and hopefully become enlightened.
grade 10. I remember my friend offering me a pipe with some chron in it. Years of teachers telling me to resist peer pressure were useless apparently. Got high, enjoyed it. Started happening more and more after that. It causes a major issue when i was younger because it really escalated from there. I found that the majority of the problems came from a friend who was really into it and wanted to grow pot. He got caught and told the cops it was mine. This just shows what pot can do, cause your best friend to back stab you.
I always thought it wasn't addictive. Or at least it was only mentally addictive. Somewhat like "i like milkshakes, so ill keep drinking them" that sort of thing.
I'm 23 now, 4th year university student. I still smoke. In fact theres a big cool looking glass bong right on my desk. Thats it's place. I try to justify the health aspect in saying i use a water filter but in reality smoke is smoke for the most part. a few years ago i noticed a change. This was the change from the mentally addictive drug to the chemically addicted drug. the first time i quit i noticed that i ate alot less, and sometimes felt kinda down. I looked at myself and realized i was experiencing withdrawal. I started to think about my future, and what, if any role pot would play. There were many times where i tried to find a place for it, but i know deep down that if i want to begin a successful and happy life i will need to get rid of it.
a few things about me. I am an openminded, free spirited individual. when i dont have pot i am not cuddled in the fedal position on the floor, nor am i going crazy. I can sit at my desk and feel inside the growing urge to get high. And honestly, when i have the stuff, my mind makes up any excuse to get high. And i do. "I got a few hours before class, ill be sober in an hour". that sort of thing.
I am a generally happy person, or i try to be. And when i envision my future i have a hard time seeing myself not smoking pot. And this is what concerns me. I know that if i 100% needed to get rid of it all i could because i've quit before. What i feel is that i've been in school for my entire life so far. And i think its the school atmosphere that is causing my stress and making me want to smoke. That and the fact that everyone at school smokes.
I'm actually about to hit a bong in a few minutes. What i'm really looking to get out of CannabisRehab.org is to find like minded people who are interested in discussing their usage and how it affects them. My parents are wonderful loving people, and they've caught me smoking a few times. but if they ever thought that i had a problem they would likely institutionalize me and make a bigger deal out of it than i want. I dont want an intervention. I want to be able to stop smoking on my own, sort of "win this battle for myself". If i decide to detox for good it would be nice to have someone i can chat with to discuss how its going.
thanks for letting me get this out.
grade 10. I remember my friend offering me a pipe with some chron in it. Years of teachers telling me to resist peer pressure were useless apparently. Got high, enjoyed it. Started happening more and more after that. It causes a major issue when i was younger because it really escalated from there. I found that the majority of the problems came from a friend who was really into it and wanted to grow pot. He got caught and told the cops it was mine. This just shows what pot can do, cause your best friend to back stab you.
I always thought it wasn't addictive. Or at least it was only mentally addictive. Somewhat like "i like milkshakes, so ill keep drinking them" that sort of thing.
I'm 23 now, 4th year university student. I still smoke. In fact theres a big cool looking glass bong right on my desk. Thats it's place. I try to justify the health aspect in saying i use a water filter but in reality smoke is smoke for the most part. a few years ago i noticed a change. This was the change from the mentally addictive drug to the chemically addicted drug. the first time i quit i noticed that i ate alot less, and sometimes felt kinda down. I looked at myself and realized i was experiencing withdrawal. I started to think about my future, and what, if any role pot would play. There were many times where i tried to find a place for it, but i know deep down that if i want to begin a successful and happy life i will need to get rid of it.
a few things about me. I am an openminded, free spirited individual. when i dont have pot i am not cuddled in the fedal position on the floor, nor am i going crazy. I can sit at my desk and feel inside the growing urge to get high. And honestly, when i have the stuff, my mind makes up any excuse to get high. And i do. "I got a few hours before class, ill be sober in an hour". that sort of thing.
I am a generally happy person, or i try to be. And when i envision my future i have a hard time seeing myself not smoking pot. And this is what concerns me. I know that if i 100% needed to get rid of it all i could because i've quit before. What i feel is that i've been in school for my entire life so far. And i think its the school atmosphere that is causing my stress and making me want to smoke. That and the fact that everyone at school smokes.
I'm actually about to hit a bong in a few minutes. What i'm really looking to get out of CannabisRehab.org is to find like minded people who are interested in discussing their usage and how it affects them. My parents are wonderful loving people, and they've caught me smoking a few times. but if they ever thought that i had a problem they would likely institutionalize me and make a bigger deal out of it than i want. I dont want an intervention. I want to be able to stop smoking on my own, sort of "win this battle for myself". If i decide to detox for good it would be nice to have someone i can chat with to discuss how its going.
thanks for letting me get this out.
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