5 nights 15 hours total sleep

[Yogi]

I have given up skunk after 9 years heavy smoking, before smoking skunk i drank heavily so have been fighting reality since i was 12 with either alcohol or skunk, replaced alcohol with skunk when started to make me really ill. I am now on day 5 i have lost a stone and a half feel sick constantly and cant sleep, i know i could walk across my street and get the drug which makes it all harder i could have a spilff in my hand in 5mins. How long will this last... when will i wake up and feel better for not having it?

Last night 3.47 i wrote this instead of giving in (my first poem) (the last bit is where i hope to be)

I enjoyed your Company

I enjoyed your company,
The way you made me feel,
You helped me forget,
You helped me live,
Where did it go wrong?
When did I start to need you?
You were everywhere,
In my dreams, around every corner

You turned on me,
Your company a burden
Taking my money,
For less and less,
Making me ill,
With or without you,

Now I am free,
Now I will learn to live
in reality

[stu61860]

Know the feeling

I only slept about 3 hours the first night.I dont even want to go to bed tonight.I know how it is Yogi,I could have some skunk in 5 mins.I have been smoking the shit for over 30 years and I am only on my 2nd day of not getting high. Good Luck Yogi

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hang in there guys, I know it sucks, it messed around with my sleep too, but it does pass and your body will readjust. Loved the poem by the way.

Stay strong and take care.

[Vixsin]

You both can do it!!!

Hi guys,

Just wanted to add my 2 cents here. Firstly, LOVED the poem. I think many, if not all, of us will be able to vividly relate to it.

Quitting still messes with my sleep. I'm coming up on 6 weeks sober and I still don't sleep all the way through the night everynight but it IS better. The first few weeks were hard for me but I exercised so much after work that when I went to bed, I was actually tired. I still wake up a couple times a night but my sleep is much more restful than it was in the beginning. I guess I am here to tell you both that it WILL get better.

You both are doing a great job. The decision and commitment to detox is the hardest step and you've already taken that. You both should feel very proud. We all are certainly proud of you guys.

Stay strong and keep us posted.

Be free.

[Yogi]

Thanks for your support

Can i just ask how far back would one spilff set you? (i am on day 6) would i be back at stage one or would it not really make any difference in the big picture...
Just i have always coped by getting out of my face either the drug or alcohol... i would have a drink but then i reckon i would have a smoke when i was drunk anyway...

Still not sleeping, still not eating, hey this is the best diet i have ever had (o: just now i am finding it hard to do anything and am feeling like i am going to pass out,

[Vixsin]

For me....1 puff sent me straight back to square 1. I smoked 1 joint with friends and immediately bought a bag that same day. I told myself many times that I will only smoke a little after my son went to bed. With just one toke, my addiction came back full force and was just as raging as if I didn't quit. For me, I can never smoke again. It's only black or white for me. Others, I'm sure, aren't like that but my addiction is.

Hope that helps.

[Yogi]

not sure if posted last bit so...

hello,

back after n

[Yogi]

hello,

Back after not managing to give up... sat here having a spliffe and feeling shit about it... I have changed jobs and moved since I last posted to try to change habits but damn it is easy to get skunk in London... I still want to give up and now I also can’t afford it any more... I also need to I am making stupid decisions, in the last 4 months I have chosen to eat a lot less to enable me to smoke ( I have lost 3 1/2 stone in 4 months, now underweight by a stone)... it is not just that I now cant lie to myself that it has not cost me a lot and still may. through smoking if I am honest I have lost contact with most of my friends mostly through laziness... I have dodged any adult decisions yes I do live on my own but it is everything else I cant afford to buy a house, I don’t have kids, don’t have a car, don’t go out , not even smoking sociably any more. The friends and family that I am still in contact with don’t know I smoke and if they do they think it is a spliffe once in a while. I cant talk to them I don’t want to go through that look when they say “your on drugs” and the lectures. I know the facts I know where I am I need help and support. I also feel that I cant go to the doctors where I work they check medical records and I would be fired. Also I cant afford to pay for help so I am stuck, where (in the uk) can I get anonymous free help in the uk form people who will think I have a problem

[SilverMaze]

hey there yogi and welcome back. you have the right mindset to quit, you need to know that you want to detox and you seem to know it. help yourself by putting a plan, every single day to do something after work, i strongly suggest working out, you will go back home tired and sleep. you will also sweat out the first few days which is good and making the cleansing faster. you will also have more appetite to eat when working out. what i do is i go to the gym, work out then shower over there and go to a good friend or my girl. get new habits, go see the clean friends and family, there are many things you can do that don't cost you much. you can work out by walking outdoors to begin with. i think that in your case, you need to look at all the things that must change with the quitting, like the laziness you mentioned.
take the decision again and stick to it, help yourself succeed by planning, you will get support here, keep us posted, and good luck!

[Yogi]

Still failing at giving up. Don't think I can do it on my own. Spoken to a very good friend of mine who's willing to sponsor me sort of thing for help... Can anyone suggest the best help in (NE) London at a affordable price that can be anonymous?

Thanks to everyone who's replied to me before, but I think it's time for some face-to-face as I'm not getting anywhere (sat here with a spliffe now)

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Marijuana Rehab

Hi Yogi,

I don’t personally know what the best particular cannabis rehab service in your area is, but I do know that many people these days seek treatment for marijuana addiction, it’s now often about two or three on the list for cannabis rehab in many countries across the world, so you are certainly not alone in feeling you need treatment for this addiction, you may well be one of those people who does need professional treatment for this problem, I am sure if you do some research online you will be able to find some options that are available to you, try to find something which other users recommend, but I guess you know that which is why you are asking, sorry I can’t personally be of more help, if anybody out there has any recommendations for cannabis rehab in London please feel free to share.

Anyway take care and please keep us posted on how it goes, I will be very interested to hear what you find.

All the best,