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[Creem]

Hello,

This is my first time posting on this site. I actually have never used an online marijuana addiction rehab group before. I have a good feeling that expressing my struggles and reading peoples responses to my struggles will be inspiring to me and hopefully other people.

I have smoked for 10 yrs and I am in my late 20s. I am going through a difficult patch in life specifically, I am having a hard time figuring out what I want to do with my life. I think quitting smoking will help me focus on that rather than what I currently do, which is use marijuana so I do not have to focus on a career choice.

On top of that, I have noticed recently that I zone out all the time. By zone out I mean I just stare at objects for long periods of time. Or during conversations while I am talking I will lose my train of thought and just sit their and say nothing. Moreover, I notice that being a heavy smoker has effected my sociability, I use to be much more outgoing but now when I am out with friends or family I feel like I do not even want to talk, all I think about is how much time do I have to spend here so no one will think that its rude that I am leaving. Leaving of course to go home and get high. Last, of course, the dreaded lack of libido, it is really hard to talk to women when you get high everyday.

[program jb3]

Moreover, I notice that being a heavy smoker has effected my sociability, I use to be much more outgoing but now when I am out with friends or family I feel like I do not even want to talk, all I think about is how much time do I have to spend here so no one will think that its rude that I am leaving.

That was me EXACTLY. Now, two weeks sober, and things are much better. For me, it's probably the biggest sign that quitting was the best choice. I still don't know what to do with my life, but that has always been a problem.

Good luck, and keep coming back, this is a very inspiring place.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi Creem and welcome to the forum.

I think quitting sounds like a good idea, the blanking out during conversations and staring at objects for a long period of time I think is a bit concerning, it messed me up pretty bad and really fecked around with my train of thought, towards the end I was having real difficulties with conversations and was struggling to string a sentence together, I am still not as sharp as I used to be but have recovered a fair bit although there is still a bit of a fog that remains, I still feel a little bit that I am between worlds at times. Anyway my advice to you is to stop now as it is only going to get worse. I too used to only be able to think about going back to my flat to get high which I prioritised above all else. So now is the time to break the cycle my friend, you are not alone, there are many here going through the same thing and we will be with you every step of the way. Don’t think about quitting forever for now, just take it one day at a time.

Take care, thanks for posting and please keep us posted on how it goes.

[notsomellowmel]

Hey JB,

Now that you're 2 weeks in, how are your sleeping patterns? And is the super crappy feeling mainly gone? lol, i need something to look forward to!

I just have no idea what to do with myself.. like creem I'm at a cross roads and trying to decide what to do next, but I'm still not motivated. I'm just starting day 5 and all i want to do is bawl and sit around doing nothing... I've tried engaging in things i enjoyed previously but I find I STILL can't concentrate. It's very frustrating.

So I guess what i'm asking is... when did those of you who have quit find yourselves ACTING normally again?

[program jb3]

Hey JB,

Now that you're 2 weeks in, how are your sleeping patterns? And is the super crappy feeling mainly gone? lol, i need something to look forward to!

Well, I don't think I'm one to base any sleep milestones on since I am taking a psych med, Gabapentin. It gets me tired enough to sleep, and I stay asleep for 6.5 -7 hours.

The super crappy feeling was gone almost from the beginning (I was on a "quitting high"), but just last night I started to feel anxious and depressed. I think I am getting sick, so that may be one of the reasons. Earlier today was stressful too, so maybe I'm not doing as great as I thought I was. Feeling a bit better after another pill though.

So I guess what i'm asking is... when did those of you who have quit find yourselves ACTING normally again?

I'm still not normal, but after a couple of days I was slightly more social and had just enough motivation to start getting things checked off my to-do list (chores, appointments, phone calls, etc.). I almost feel like I have been too busy, and I would like to sit back and relax. The problem is, once I stop working, I still get bored.

[In Treatment]

For a moment i thought you copied my intro post Creem. You are certainly describing myself (we are similar in age and length of smoking), in lack of sociability (its been my problem for a while now, but sometimes i think that pot stopped my social side from developing and now im stuck without one). I also find myself dozing off sometimes, but i have found it goes away after youve been sober for a while.