I think I need help

[Searching]

Hi everyone I'm really confused about my relationship to marijuana and I'm craving some advice from people here.

Someone else said they have a love-hate relationship to weed, and I really feel this too.

I wake up each morning promising to detox that day and thinking how it's limiting my potential and that I need to find confidence inside myself and not in weed.

After I smoke though I feel suddenly that everything's going to be OK. I think profound things about society, myself and the future. I write these down and believe that someday I'll be an academic or public commentator. I feel like I'm in a transition period - unemployed and living at home before university starts in 6 weeks - and it's OK to smoke to get through it.

My Mum works really hard and doesn't smoke but she tells me that I'm young and about to start study and just relax and if I smoke a bit it's no big deal.

I feel like I can't go a day without it though and that I want to have a life free from it. I don't smoke very much - maybe half a joint a day - but it's still making me feel depressed sometimes.

I'm afraid that if I stop I'll become a different person - always having to be on the go and keeping busy - and when I'm high I can just slow down and appreciate nature and life in general.

I know I don't want to smoke forever, but I'm unsure if I should become a monk (I don't really drink) or if it's just a stage of life.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi Searching

Just to let you know I have responded to your other thread about when is the best time to quit. It doesn’t sound like you are a heavy smoker, there are certainly many of us here who have or are using a lot more, for me it was an eight a day, which assuming you are not making joints the size of cigars is a lot more, I was a particularly heavy user though. Anyway while it doesn’t sound like you are using that much, the only thing that perhaps could be a bit concerning is the fact that you say you feel like you can’t go a day without it, if you absolutely have no problem what so ever then you could say why is this the case, but perhaps it depends what you call a problem. Anyway the fact that you say you can’t go a day without it I would say is at least a pretty slippery slope which could lead to developing a problem if nothing else. If I was you I would try to go without it for a while and see how you do, it should be pretty easy if you genuinely don’t have a problem, if you find it hard then perhaps that in its self is telling you it was necessary to do.

Take care, thanks for posting and please keep us posted.

Good luck