Tomorrow will be the 13th day I have not smoked weed. I am not kidding when I tell you I loved my weed... Not one day without it until 13 days ago. I started when I was 19... was dating a guy who was into that and harder stuff, and although I've never done anything else, I grew to love weed. Everything seemed better as long as I was smoking.
May 19 I quit my job; funny how the drug didn't interfere with my work. I quit because we had a new manager high on her horse and I couldn't take it anymore. I did all the work, while she had all the glory. Now I am hoping to get clean and be able to pass a piss test for once in my life. I was lucky over the years that the jobs I had never made me test, but the county I am in is so drug ridden (meth/pills) that most all good jobs test. i do not want to be flippin burgers, put it that way. I am intelligent and most people don't even know I smoked. I kept it secret. I did well in all my previous jobs; imagine the potential if I were clean...
I recently found this site, after pouring over te internet in search of something to help... I ordered a marijuana detox system, which should be here tomorrow. Does anyone have any feedback on that? I read online it takes up to 90 days for a heavy smoker to clean it out. Is this always true?
I also read about L-theanine. I ordered some of that too. Anything to make this feeling go away. I know I could smoke one now and have a good nights sleep, which I haven't had since I started this rehab. I won't allow it, though. It's a big deal for me. I want to stay clean and not just for a good job. I want kids someday, and dont want them to be around it like I was as a child. I don't want to be a slave to it anymore. Such a hold on me...
Any response is appreciated. I only can do this a day at a time. I have no idea what the future holds, but spending money on something that burns away doesn't seem to be the answer. There's got to be more to life. I just can't remember life before weed. I am nervous and scared...
May 19 I quit my job; funny how the drug didn't interfere with my work. I quit because we had a new manager high on her horse and I couldn't take it anymore. I did all the work, while she had all the glory. Now I am hoping to get clean and be able to pass a piss test for once in my life. I was lucky over the years that the jobs I had never made me test, but the county I am in is so drug ridden (meth/pills) that most all good jobs test. i do not want to be flippin burgers, put it that way. I am intelligent and most people don't even know I smoked. I kept it secret. I did well in all my previous jobs; imagine the potential if I were clean...
I recently found this site, after pouring over te internet in search of something to help... I ordered a marijuana detox system, which should be here tomorrow. Does anyone have any feedback on that? I read online it takes up to 90 days for a heavy smoker to clean it out. Is this always true?
I also read about L-theanine. I ordered some of that too. Anything to make this feeling go away. I know I could smoke one now and have a good nights sleep, which I haven't had since I started this rehab. I won't allow it, though. It's a big deal for me. I want to stay clean and not just for a good job. I want kids someday, and dont want them to be around it like I was as a child. I don't want to be a slave to it anymore. Such a hold on me...
Any response is appreciated. I only can do this a day at a time. I have no idea what the future holds, but spending money on something that burns away doesn't seem to be the answer. There's got to be more to life. I just can't remember life before weed. I am nervous and scared...

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