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I'm so glad i found this site, Ok, it is day 3 without for me after 13 years of very heavy usage (at least a once a week), I used it every day without question, half of my life. So far its been very tough, I have had around 5 hours sleep in three nights. I have just started a new job (minimum wage) which has been a healthy distraction so far. I have been sweating a lot and my head feels very fuzzy, and I have to force food down. My sexual appitite seems to have gone and I'm also smoking roll ups like crazy but one step at a time. Thanks to this cannabis rehab site I have found that all my symtoms are not out of the ordinary which is reasuuring. I have never really had any of the mental problems such as paranoia and not being socialble whilst using the drug although obviously I was depentant on it before and after I did anything. I'm sure I can handle the physical effects of going cold turkey but my biggest fear about quitting is that I have not even raised a smile since quitting and have kinda lost my spark, I am actually scared (for the first time that I can remeber) that it won't come back, I just wanna be the same person I was 4 days ago (without being dependant). I understand that the drug makes things seem funnier but I hope that it was not the reason why I had my sense of humour in the first place. I'm worried because I have never expierinced any type of depression and I dont really know how I will cope if it gets worse because from what I have read it does for a time. On the plus side I do not feel angry and have not snapped at anybody so far. My girlfriend and family have been very supportive, although they have come up with some stupid ideas for how I should spend my time because I've been board constantly (bless them). I have not set my goals to never smoke the drug again because that is scary, but if I can last one week then I should be able to last another, then another.
I'm sorry if I am winging and if this does not make sense but I needed to get this off my chest to people who can understand. My eyes are watering a bit whilst I write this, I dunno why. I have never been much of a emotional person and have never contributed to a rehab group before.
p.s my reasons for trying to detox are money and more importantly health, my Dad has just been diagnosed with lung cancer last month and although I am smoking more roll ups now, I feel that if I can quit the drug then quitting smoking will be a much easier step.
Thanks for you time.
I'm so glad i found this site, Ok, it is day 3 without for me after 13 years of very heavy usage (at least a once a week), I used it every day without question, half of my life. So far its been very tough, I have had around 5 hours sleep in three nights. I have just started a new job (minimum wage) which has been a healthy distraction so far. I have been sweating a lot and my head feels very fuzzy, and I have to force food down. My sexual appitite seems to have gone and I'm also smoking roll ups like crazy but one step at a time. Thanks to this cannabis rehab site I have found that all my symtoms are not out of the ordinary which is reasuuring. I have never really had any of the mental problems such as paranoia and not being socialble whilst using the drug although obviously I was depentant on it before and after I did anything. I'm sure I can handle the physical effects of going cold turkey but my biggest fear about quitting is that I have not even raised a smile since quitting and have kinda lost my spark, I am actually scared (for the first time that I can remeber) that it won't come back, I just wanna be the same person I was 4 days ago (without being dependant). I understand that the drug makes things seem funnier but I hope that it was not the reason why I had my sense of humour in the first place. I'm worried because I have never expierinced any type of depression and I dont really know how I will cope if it gets worse because from what I have read it does for a time. On the plus side I do not feel angry and have not snapped at anybody so far. My girlfriend and family have been very supportive, although they have come up with some stupid ideas for how I should spend my time because I've been board constantly (bless them). I have not set my goals to never smoke the drug again because that is scary, but if I can last one week then I should be able to last another, then another.
I'm sorry if I am winging and if this does not make sense but I needed to get this off my chest to people who can understand. My eyes are watering a bit whilst I write this, I dunno why. I have never been much of a emotional person and have never contributed to a rehab group before.
p.s my reasons for trying to detox are money and more importantly health, my Dad has just been diagnosed with lung cancer last month and although I am smoking more roll ups now, I feel that if I can quit the drug then quitting smoking will be a much easier step.
Thanks for you time.
the first 10 days to two weeks are the worst, the absolute pits, but you must remember why you are doing it - you will get through this. anytime you want to chat, just come on here, it really does help. Re the sleeping - have you tried nytol one a night - they really work for me, the herbal are not much good but the one a night ones really do the trick and my therapist doesn't think there is a problem in taking them - better that than sleeping tablets or going back to smoking. dont worry about the argument with your girlfriend - that would happen even if you were smoking, couples argue anyway, so dont beat yourself up about it! we all have new things to face in life without the fog of smoke keeping things "unreal" for us and it is time to actually experience life without it, which at times can be a struggle but it can only get better.
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