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So I love my boyfriend and pot, and my boyfriend hates pot. I want to detox because I love him, but I look at him and sometimes resent him for "making" me quit although he didn't. I want to find it in myself though. I really do. I've been smoking for 5 years. Even got to the point when I smoked first thing in the morning, before leaving for work, during my lunch break, immediately after work, on the way home from work (it was a long commute...), before dinner, after dinner, and before bed. Never thought that I would be like that. Seems whenever I get some, I smoke it. Even if I intend to save it and use it occasionally, I cannot do that. I can have a bottle of wine in my fridge for months, but a joint won't last a day. When I think about it, it makes me sick. But I still... still... don't want to quit. I did though, and I feel resentment towards my awesome boyfriend because if it. I love him, but I'm afraid I'll leave him because I want to smoke. Very few people in this world know I smoked weed. I've always smoked it alone. Sometimes when he's at work and I'm alone, I think about how easy it would be for me to go over to the dispensary (I live in Cali, which makes it.. um, harder because I can buy it from almost anywhere legally with my medical card) and buy a brownie or soda and he would never know the difference. No smell, no paraphernalia, nothing. I don't want to be deceitful. I want to have an honest relationship. I love him and he loves me. PLEASE I NEED HELP!!!!!!! I can quit, but I don't want to resent him for it.
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