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Hey everyone,
So first off I want to say thank you to everyone involved with this great support website. I took my first hit of the drug about a year and a half ago. Since then, I have gone through a few times of relatively heavy use, with periods of abstinence in between. I am now a freshman in college, and my usage has increased exponentially since I moved away about 2 months ago. My parents had no clue about me using until last week, when they saw my bank account, and there was really only one way to explain where all of the cash I had been spending on bud went. I promised them that I would quit, went for a week without using, and then lit up again on friday night, as I had come home for the weekend. 5 friends and I went through the majority of a quad of dank bud on friday night. Anyways, I was talking to a friend (non-user) last night about what I had done the night before, and my mom overheard me. Needless to say, she was furious, and now both of my parents know the entire story of my addiction. I have relapsed about 3 times over the course of me trying to quit. The problem that I find is that the drug is so prevalent where I go to school, so much so that, in certain areas of campus, you can smell that aromatic smoke on an almost daily basis. I have severe depression, which began after my girlfriend broke up with me around may of last year. At that point, I had not touched the drug for 4 months, I had thrown away my grinder and bud jar and everything, and I was not even thinking about cannabis. When she broke up with me, however, I got right back into using, and my use has escalated since then. How do you people do it? I have also had OCD since I can remember, and have been on venlafaxine for almost 4 years. the drug helps my OCD in the short run tremendously, and also relieves my depression temporarily. I have begun to believe that my life has no purpose, and that nothing is worth doing except those things that bring immediate pleasure. Therefore, my grades are suffering (this is new, I did very well in high school, took as many AP courses as my school offered, and am a commended national merit scholar, meaning that I am among the top 1% of scorers on the PSAT in the nation; I also did very well on the SAT, and all of my AP tests in school), and I feel like my entire life is out of control, or under the control of THC at this point. I have lied to my parents, broken my family's trust, and missed out on many good opportunities to spend time doing fun and productive things because I was lighting up with my stoner "friends". How have you people recovered from this? What do you do when you feel like lighting up to take away the feeling that life is meaningless and nothing that you do will ever matter to anyone once you die? Thanks to anyone who can help get me out of this.
Peace,
ned41
So first off I want to say thank you to everyone involved with this great support website. I took my first hit of the drug about a year and a half ago. Since then, I have gone through a few times of relatively heavy use, with periods of abstinence in between. I am now a freshman in college, and my usage has increased exponentially since I moved away about 2 months ago. My parents had no clue about me using until last week, when they saw my bank account, and there was really only one way to explain where all of the cash I had been spending on bud went. I promised them that I would quit, went for a week without using, and then lit up again on friday night, as I had come home for the weekend. 5 friends and I went through the majority of a quad of dank bud on friday night. Anyways, I was talking to a friend (non-user) last night about what I had done the night before, and my mom overheard me. Needless to say, she was furious, and now both of my parents know the entire story of my addiction. I have relapsed about 3 times over the course of me trying to quit. The problem that I find is that the drug is so prevalent where I go to school, so much so that, in certain areas of campus, you can smell that aromatic smoke on an almost daily basis. I have severe depression, which began after my girlfriend broke up with me around may of last year. At that point, I had not touched the drug for 4 months, I had thrown away my grinder and bud jar and everything, and I was not even thinking about cannabis. When she broke up with me, however, I got right back into using, and my use has escalated since then. How do you people do it? I have also had OCD since I can remember, and have been on venlafaxine for almost 4 years. the drug helps my OCD in the short run tremendously, and also relieves my depression temporarily. I have begun to believe that my life has no purpose, and that nothing is worth doing except those things that bring immediate pleasure. Therefore, my grades are suffering (this is new, I did very well in high school, took as many AP courses as my school offered, and am a commended national merit scholar, meaning that I am among the top 1% of scorers on the PSAT in the nation; I also did very well on the SAT, and all of my AP tests in school), and I feel like my entire life is out of control, or under the control of THC at this point. I have lied to my parents, broken my family's trust, and missed out on many good opportunities to spend time doing fun and productive things because I was lighting up with my stoner "friends". How have you people recovered from this? What do you do when you feel like lighting up to take away the feeling that life is meaningless and nothing that you do will ever matter to anyone once you die? Thanks to anyone who can help get me out of this.
Peace,
ned41
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