I have been a pot smoker since i was 30 years old. (AM 37 now) In 2005 my first marriage was destroyed by weed, Call the drug the straw that broke the camel's back. My ex-wife hates drugs(but she drinks) and it caused the end of what was a tumultuous relationship to begin with ( not a healthy marriage). At 34 my grandmother, and closest uncle died. Then my mother passed away on Christmas day(2006) from cancer. This helped lead to my developing a total dependence on weed. But I was still a productive person.Because i smoked I had to start my own company to make money to avoid drug tests. My best Friend and I since childhood started an electrical contracting and service company and we did really well ( he still is). I got to about 90k a year of personal income at the peak (last year.) However, the last 2 years I have not left the house much. I just sat here, got high, and played computer games all day and night long. Wake and bake and never stopped..The only time i wasn't smoking was when I was asleep. . My office was in my house so this was fairly easy to accomplish. Then I became a total recluse. All I felt the need to do was smoke the drug and play video games. Which is what I did. My fiancee( live in) is a very active person, but she could never get me outta the house. I had no desire to do anything and was totally apathetic to my situation. My business partner finally had enough of it and started a new business behind my back and took all our customers, essentially leaving me nothing but a bunch of debt. My company collapsed in August, and now I am unemployed, but hey I had my the drug and my computer games soo I didn't really care. At least not enough to do anything about it. Guess what else? the dog ran off, my life is a country music song .
About DEC 10Th or so this year i got what i assumed was the flu, turns out it was something else, some other virus, fever, general bad sick feelings, but it made my feet swell. I actually went to the emergency room and got thrown out cuz I did not the money to pay them. This was lowest point of my life( i am on unemployment now and lost my health insurance). I went to a doctor and he checked me out told me I had viral infection and to take my vitamins..
I decided to detox smoking about 9 days ago during the illness. And for nine days I have been the drug FREE! The first few days were insomnia hell, crazy dreams and the like, no sleep, night sweats, and terrible anxiety, no appetite. and general feelings of malaise. I discovered CAMOMILE TEA and found I could sleep through the night with it...(That stuff is great, if you have problems sleeping try it.) The witdrawls have been pure hell. racing heart, terrible anxiety, and all the dull pains in my back are not so dull anymore. I find myself chain smoking cigarettes, actually switched to a "lighter" cigarette to avoid the hacking cough that was coming . that's helped some i suppose. (cigarettes are next, but i have to get through this first). O I also eliminated caffeine from diet for fear of panic attacks brought on by the stimulant effects of the caffeine....I have been the Dr pepper kid since i was little and rarely drank anything else.O i guess I have kicked that habit as well. I have been the juice and water kid for the last nine days.. losta water, lotsa juice. I have had mild Kidney pains general aches in my shoulders, and I actually strained a left pectoral muscle which I mistaked for Chest pains...just terrible.. I have started walking vigorously in the morning, extending the distance a Lil bit at a time. Exercise helps, but my Anxiety level is supreme at the moment and it won't let go. I have no desire to smoke the drug ever again, but this anxiety is really rough. I suppose i was really saturated with the cannabis, and i Just want to know that I am not going to die from quitting pot. I just want my anxiety level to subside, the rest I can deal with.....The fog in my head is still really bad but getting better.
About DEC 10Th or so this year i got what i assumed was the flu, turns out it was something else, some other virus, fever, general bad sick feelings, but it made my feet swell. I actually went to the emergency room and got thrown out cuz I did not the money to pay them. This was lowest point of my life( i am on unemployment now and lost my health insurance). I went to a doctor and he checked me out told me I had viral infection and to take my vitamins..
I decided to detox smoking about 9 days ago during the illness. And for nine days I have been the drug FREE! The first few days were insomnia hell, crazy dreams and the like, no sleep, night sweats, and terrible anxiety, no appetite. and general feelings of malaise. I discovered CAMOMILE TEA and found I could sleep through the night with it...(That stuff is great, if you have problems sleeping try it.) The witdrawls have been pure hell. racing heart, terrible anxiety, and all the dull pains in my back are not so dull anymore. I find myself chain smoking cigarettes, actually switched to a "lighter" cigarette to avoid the hacking cough that was coming . that's helped some i suppose. (cigarettes are next, but i have to get through this first). O I also eliminated caffeine from diet for fear of panic attacks brought on by the stimulant effects of the caffeine....I have been the Dr pepper kid since i was little and rarely drank anything else.O i guess I have kicked that habit as well. I have been the juice and water kid for the last nine days.. losta water, lotsa juice. I have had mild Kidney pains general aches in my shoulders, and I actually strained a left pectoral muscle which I mistaked for Chest pains...just terrible.. I have started walking vigorously in the morning, extending the distance a Lil bit at a time. Exercise helps, but my Anxiety level is supreme at the moment and it won't let go. I have no desire to smoke the drug ever again, but this anxiety is really rough. I suppose i was really saturated with the cannabis, and i Just want to know that I am not going to die from quitting pot. I just want my anxiety level to subside, the rest I can deal with.....The fog in my head is still really bad but getting better.
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