Been smoking grass and drinking hard for 15 years. I'm 42 and finally decided to grow up. Well, I'd like to say I decided. If I didn't quit, my wife would have kicked me out. Also, my kids are old enough now that I don't want them around pot or alcohol. I quit drinking 8 months ago, but kept smoking the drug and hiding it from my family, feeling bad about myself all the time. I decided to detox the smoke 7 days ago. Other than missing the high, I haven't really had any withdrawal problems. Then today I get a text from my hook up that he just scored a bunch of kind bud and he wanted to know how much I wanted. I was at work and I must have looked at my phone for the whole morning. Finally I answered back "no thanks". It was harder than I expected. I just wasnt prepared for that. I didn't get anything done all day and I felt really jittery all day. But I said no and realized that self-discipline is hard, but you respect yourself more when you exercise it. I guess saying no to my dealer was just another part of the process. I got another message from him tonight. It said "are you sure?". I laughed when I thought about all the times I tried to contact over and over again to score weed. Funny, I guess.
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