Time to grow up

[gotta give it up]

I have been on the drug since high school. Probably to fill a void..to deal with parents divorce..everyone has their reasons for starting. It has been the one constant for me since 1977. Anyway, I have been wanting to detox for years, even while spouting all the reasons it is better than alcohol and should be legalized. Health and financial motives were not enuff, but now I am subject to random tests so have to get clean..before i "win the lottery".
I feel like a loser, hiding on our 9 year old son to do something I will have to tell him not to. The smell on our clothes, the hacking and anxiety felt when supplies were low were never enuff to convince me to stop. Now this fear of losing everything because I have to pee in a cup is my motivation. I am sure it won't make it any easier but obviously I couldn't quit for the right reasons..
It hasnt been 24 hours yet but finding this cannabis rehab site gives me hope..

[gotta give it up]

day 1

Well last night much to my surprise I was able to eat supper and get some sleep. I think it is easier quitting than surviving the days when I simply had no pot. Those days just consumed me with anxiety and the desire to get my hands on some. I am sure the physical symptoms will come but hopefully not the overwhelming anger and frustration of not being able to enjoy a puff. So far so good..we cleaned up the gym in our basement and hopefully will replace smoking with exercise.
Already looking forward to coughing up the black tar that will show me I am doing the right thing.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi gotta give it up welcome to the forum.

It sounds like you know what you are doing and staying positive, exercise I think is such an important part of kicking the habit, infact I think if we all lived a life that involved more exercise, like man did a long time ago, we probably would not feel so much of a need to take drugs in the first place. Anyway hang in there and keep at it, I am sure you can do it.

Take care

[gotta give it up]

thanks

I dont think u realize the full extent of what u are doing with this forum. First of all, smoking dope is a lonely private matter. that is why we think fellow smokers are such good friends. It is hard living a dual live..except our alter egos are not super heroes..just law breakers. But i know rich and successful folks that enjoy the herb. I at least stood up when my member of parliment came in my driveway and told him we need to decriminalize it. He stated that he supports small fines for growing it..that still involves the justice system..why cant we just give the gov $500 a year for a permit to grow our own? Then it is an income for the gov rather than an expense. If u get caught selling it then the fines should be steep..but who am i hurting if I grow it and smoke it? The hospitals are filled with people suffering from tobacco problems and the gov doesnt seem too conmcerned about that. If it was legal and I could pick up a cpl of grams on friday as easily as someone can get booze..I would never quit. But because society deems it evil, I cannot enjoy it. However, as we all know, sit two guys down with a quarter ounce, next to two guys with a bottle of rum..who do you think will cause more harm to society if they all went out somewhere? I can live with dying early and the rest of it, but government is hypocitcal when it comes to pot. I doubt ther is a politician in the world that has not smoked pot or has a relative that does.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

I don’t believe in criminalising the users of any drugs, personally I think the issue of any drug use should be one of public health, rather than criminality.

Sure alcohol and tobacco cause allot of problems too and people need to be made aware of them also, which these days is happening, but just because there is something worse, doesn’t mean people shouldn’t be made aware of the negative effects of smoking cannabis too and offered support if they want to quit, two wrongs don’t make a right.