Extreme anxiety, emotional sensitivity and disturbed thoughts

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

hi everybody
After dealing with all the physical detox symptoms, I am stuck with extreme anxiety, emotional sensitivity and disturbed thoughts. I am so emotional all the time even when I am school sometimes I have to go to the bathroom coz I cant keep my tears in. It's been about 36 days since my last dube, my new years resolution after about 2 years oh pot use and 1 year on chronic use. Before I started smoking I never had anxiety except in situations where I was really scared. I was also a happy, bubbly and loving person with no troubles in her life. I guess i started using coz I liked the buzz but I have no idea how it escalated to that level. I am also in a beautiful 5 years relationship with a man that that i love more than anything in this world ( he doesn't smoke). Since I stopped smoking I've been having negative thoughts about him ( like what if I stop loving him, what if this what if that), that are driving me insane I know they are not true but my mind keeps bringing them back all the time. Its like i'm sabotaging my relationship in my head!!! I thought it could be coz of the anxiety coz for me the scariest thing would be to be without him. We have plans of getting married and everything and all I want is for these psycho thoughts to go out of my head. I feet like **** all the time very much like depression. Also I don't feel like seeing my friends anymore ( they are not smokers either, if they would smoke it would be with me), I don't want to see my parents and i don't want to do anything that I used to like before. Even my apartment seems different to me. I have midterms soon and if I cant concentrate I am *****The only thing I can do is read about my addiction and ppls posts on the net. Its so hard to be sad all the time when I used to be happy all the time. Has the drug taken all the love I had in me? I haven't experienced a positive emotion since I quit, all I do is cry and have bad anxiety. plz help!

Tx so much for reading hope to hear some good news
Lili

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Marijuana Addiction

Hi Lili welcome to the forum.

It sounds like using and quitting the drug has left you in a pretty bad way, it did me too. That’s the thing with the effects it can have on some people, even if it doesn’t cause full blown psychosis, which in the vast majority of people it doesn’t, it can still increase the symptoms of psychosis and mental illness, in a far higher number of people than just those in which it triggers schizophrenia. For more info on this you may want to check out this post Cannabis risks are not just schizophrenia. Anyway don’t panic all this may just be the symptoms of withdrawing, which in it’s self can also cause allot of symptoms of mental illness, i.e. depression and anxiety. It can take some people a month or two for them to calm down. If after a couple of months you still don’t feel right, then I would maybe consider seeking professional psychiatric help.

I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling, but there’s a good chance it will soon pass by it’s self, so hang in there and try to stay positive.

Take care and please keep us posted on how it is going.

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

Hey Lil

Hang in there........remember there use to a Lil before she smoked pot! Try to remembr that person that you were before you started.

Today is the 1st day for me for quitting. I quit before and that was 5 yrs. ago. I went for 6 months. That's what I kept on remembering "I did not always smoke pot" so I tried to find that person I was before. I"ve been smoking for 33 yrs. & I was liking the feeling of being "numb" alot and it is costly of course.

So hang in there Lil and remember the gal you were before. I'm going to kick the "habit" for good this time. Off to the gym I go!

Best of luck to you!

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hi everybody
After dealing with all the physical detox symptoms, I am stuck with extreme anxiety, emotional sensitivity and disturbed thoughts. I am so emotional all the time even when I am school sometimes I have to go to the bathroom coz I cant keep my tears in. It's been about 36 days since my last dube, my new years resolution after about 2 years oh pot use and 1 year on chronic use. Before I started smoking I never had anxiety except in situations where I was really scared. I was also a happy, bubbly and loving person with no troubles in her life. I guess i started using coz I liked the buzz but I have no idea how it escalated to that level. I am also in a beautiful 5 years relationship with a man that that i love more than anything in this world ( he doesn't smoke). Since I stopped smoking I've been having negative thoughts about him ( like what if I stop loving him, what if this what if that), that are driving me insane I know they are not true but my mind keeps bringing them back all the time. Its like i'm sabotaging my relationship in my head!!! I thought it could be coz of the anxiety coz for me the scariest thing would be to be without him. We have plans of getting married and everything and all I want is for these psycho thoughts to go out of my head. I feet like **** all the time very much like depression. Also I don't feel like seeing my friends anymore ( they are not smokers either, if they would smoke it would be with me), I don't want to see my parents and i don't want to do anything that I used to like before. Even my apartment seems different to me. I have midterms soon and if I cant concentrate I am *****The only thing I can do is read about my addiction and ppls posts on the net. Its so hard to be sad all the time when I used to be happy all the time. Has the drug taken all the love I had in me? I haven't experienced a positive emotion since I quit, all I do is cry and have bad anxiety. plz help!

Tx so much for reading hope to hear some good news
Lili

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

I am really scared coz the mind is so powerful that it can probably convince you that you have something when you don't. I always thought I was a strong person and never thought that the drug could destroy my life I quit cigarettes about 7 months ago ans it was peanuts compared to this, but I guess I had the drug to replace with and it kinda helped.I also looked up anhedonia ( loss of pleasure) as a detox symptom, coz it totally describes how I feel. And from the lack pleasure comes anxiety and depression. Sometimes I am fine, mostly at night, but as soon as a racing negative thought comes I could blow it out of proportion and find a million other problems ( going around in loop) and I feel like i'm going mental. How do I stay positive and how can I concentrate on my school coz I'm finishing my bachelors and don't want to screw up my semester

Tx a lot
Lili

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hey Lili I know what you mean about the constant loop of negative thoughts, I suffer from OCD and one of the symptoms of that can be constant intrusive negative thoughts, so I know what it’s like. I have even done cognitive behavioural therapy for it and in that they try to teach you a Buddhist type approach to dealing with them, basically just let them come and go as if watching the scenery on a train journey, just let them wash over you and try not to engage with them, or elaborate on them in a negative way, try to think positively and recognise that they are just a symptom of your current illness rather than a part of you, that way it’s meant to be easier to detach from them. Anyway that’s the type of thing they advised us, I hope it helps.

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

Tx so much for you help it feels really good to relate to someone that went through about the same stuff and that understands how I feel, no offense I'll try what you said and hope it will work. Another thing I have to do is to get out of the house. Except for school I am always home, my bf always try's to motivate me to see my friends, or go for a walk,go do yoga, take me out for supper or go shopping ( I used to love it before ) but for me home its like a safe zone and if i'm not there I wish I would be there ( even if I still don't feel that good at least I can cry in peace). The weird part is that it was at home that I used to smoke the most. Usually people hate being places that reminds them about the bad habit, but I guess I cant leave home so I have no choice but to make the best of it.

Again tx so much CannabisRehab.org is great
Wish you all a good recovery
Lili

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

I am going through a similar thing, just remember it’s just part of the marijuana withdrawal. We will get better.

[i_wanna_be_normal]

LILI i know how you feel!!!!!!!!

LILI
i can so relate to how your feeling....that is exactly how im feeling exactly the same,keep feeling nervous and feel really strange about the things i use to love,keep feeling upset when i see things that remind me of when i was a happy person,i also find comfort at my families home NOT MINE!!!!! i hate being on my own and keep getting negative thoughts going through my head really really stupid ones that shouldnt even matter to me if i was normal.i use to be a happy person but i cant seem to find that person any more,i dont even wanna do the things i use to gym,socialising,meeting friends,etc etc,its lucky you have a understanding boy friend who comforts you,ive got a good family who love me to bits so im ok,but my mind is going crazy and all i wanna do is sit at my parents house and sit on my laptop,there more i feel like this the more upset i get,its like a merry go round,i cant even concentrate at work which makes me even worse because i need my brain at work.ive given up for just over three months now,ive smoked for about fifteen years,mainly at night time just to get a good nights sleep,it was just normal the drug not skunk or chronic,its like these feelings have hijacked my life,as soon as i wake up in the morning it is there all day,i might get ten minutes peace here and there,i get better in the evening and sometimes im really fine in the evenings,i keep thinking about my future and it doesnt look good if im gonna feel like this,
Imjust keepng positive and pray to god a lot and pray that i come out of this and fell back to normal and live my normal life (without the drug of course) i hope things get better for me and you


p.s. i have to admit things are slightly better and

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

I_wanna_be_normal hang in there

I_Wanna-Be_Normal I read your story and I thought I wrote it except for the fact that I've been smoking for only 2 years and not 15. I smoked in the last years about 3-4 dubes a day and I used to buy 3 X 3.5g a week. I don't even know how much that is but I every time I used to ask my dealer( my next door neighbor by the way, we were doing the exchange by the window, lol) for something stronger. I was getting ****ed coz before it was so much fun when I was stoned I used to laugh like crazy, but after nothing. I think that our best option is to let time do its work, be patient. I know, its hard, very hard every day I wake up any I say to myself ok, today is the day that I'm gonna be fine, FINE!!! Unfortunately, its never the case up to now . Today I got out of the house. Me and y bf went shopping. It felt good to get out, it's true that the world is so much more beautiful and the colors so much more vivid than before It's the first positive thing I noticed since I QUIT. I also went to this health store and bought these capsules. They are called o3mega+ joy (from GENUINE HEALTH), it suppose to improve mood and well-being, the ingredients are fish-oil concentrate, EPA and DHA ( what your brain needs to function properly). I asked all kinds of questions to the lady and it sounds pretty good, it's supposed to take away the anxiety and make you happier, hope it works. I know you are on mild-antidepressants, but I think they could be pretty harsh and most probably addictive, so you don't wanna fight an addiction with another one. How are you feeling?
For me the worst is the fact that I cant feel any good feelings and the more I think about it, the worst it is ( like you) and it's not like I can stop it. I guess we have to think that there are ppl out there that are far worst then us and with way bigger problems (not necessarily drugs) and that we should consider us lucky and smart enough to stop before it got worse. We are stronger than this stupid addiction. It fells good to say it STUPID, STUPID addiction!!!!! Try it

Good luck and hope you feel better
Lili

[i_wanna_be_normal]

thanks lili

thanks LILI,im on mild anxiety tablets which i dont think are working so im not worried about them,im not depressed,just pi##ed of that i feel like this,i did have a good day today,i think om lonely which is making things worse,i do feel to go out and meet a nice lady and settle down,but sometimes im so anxious i cant do it,im not afraid of anything but just cant settle down,i do see a councillor which really helps and makes you see things in a different way and explains why i have weird feelings,she also teaches you how to cope with the thoughts and says these are only your brain playing tricks with you and none of it is real,we will get better the more determination and hope you have the better you will get,im gonna try those omega oil tablets ,ive read they are very good brain food,so lets keep positive and get better.....keep me posted take care


1_wanna_be_normal

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

I too am a fan of supplements that contain omega fatty acids, allot of people who experience mental health problems swear by them, they are meant to be really good for the brain. I take flax seed oil capsules as they have the omega 3, without the fishy after taste. From what I have heard if your are experiencing mental health problems, than a good diet is very important.

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

I was just wondering if I take the capsules will my brain get used to them and then stop making what he's suppose to make by itself??? I know before it used to get dopamine from the drug and now that I stopped smoking it doesn't get it anymore so it has to learn how to produce it by itself again. The serotonin also I think. So basically I am scared to take anything. I want my brain to be healthy and drug free.
I also have a lot of trouble in the morning. First I don't really sleep well and I have very bad dreams( scary ones, like I am being chased or ppl are trying to kill me, very disturbing ) and also any little noise makes my heart jump. This is how my mornings start ( except for the weekend coz my bf doesn't go to work), so no wonder that for the rest of the day I feel like ****.
I wanna feel happy , I don't even remember how it feels Don't get me wrong, I do laugh sometimes, but at the same time I still feel that there's something wrong, like it's not sincere laugh.

Hope to be better soon, day 39 today
Tx everyone wish you all a good recovery
Lili

[Damos]

Hi there,Ive been clean for around a coupla months now along with alcohol abuse as wel as the hooch(,bit of a double trouble)and found exercise and really healthy food has helped with the cravings!Good luck man your stronger than the **** week cravings!

[mac1977]

I quit the drug 76 days ago and Im suffering from anhedonia too, its like your brain cant recognise a pleasurable activity after getting an artificial high for so long, and needs to learn to do it again. I read an internet article about quitting cannabis and anhedonia and it says it can last for 4-6 months but does get better

[i_wanna_be_normal]

LILI
same here when im sleeping the slighest noise makes me jumpy,i do fall asleep straight away but i wake up in the middle of the night and fall in and out of sleep,i do get funny dreams but not scary ones but the dreams i get make me think to much about them so i get scared,my morning starts of really bad and im like that all day i do get the odd peaceful moment but i keep thinking something is not right and i get all funny again,im at my best(whatever that maybe) in the evenings,i cant seem to find any joy in the things i use to like,i keep analysing myself and getting upset why im like this,i do laugh sometimes as well but not a proper whole heartedly laugh,i also get very sensitive to anything,if i read something sad in the newspaper i get upset........i need to get better


i_wanna_be_normal