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Hi all. I decided to detox finally. I don't really need to ask any questions as I'm well aware of what I'm giong thru but I just need somewhere to vent my frustration about the lack of sleep. I am extremely determined to detox however I have daily doubts simply because I feel mega sleep deprived. I am in my first week of quiting and I understand that my brain needs to adjust to functioning without weed. I have tried to detox several times in the past but failed after only a couple of days due to the fact that I deal really badly with lack of sleep. I am determined this time though. I have gone as far as having a meeting with my boss to explain to him why I've been an a****** for a week. He suprised me by telling me that he respected my decision and asked if there was anything he could do to help. I was blown away. I thought he'd sack me because in my industry drugs are a big no no. I asked for time off and he gave me two weeks and told me to call him if I nedded longer. wow!
Getting back to my venting now, this is where I get ****ed off with myself. I have a large support network, my boss is understanding, my girlfriend hasn't left me yet, so why the hell do I feel like bashing my head against a brick wall? I know, sleep deprevation. Guys its driving me nuts but I WILL get thru this even if it kills me. I am not going back to smoking now after going thru hell for a week. I know it'll take roughly 28 days to become somewhat normal. 7 down, 21 to go! It takes 21 days for something to become a habit so I'm hoping that in the next 21 days I can develop a habit of proper rest and sleep. The reason I'm angry at myself is because I'm usually a very shy and placid person but throw a bit of withdrawals my way and I become the devil himself. I do not like myself like this. My girl is staying right away from me and I can't blame her. She understands what's happening to me
but I can see in her eyes that she's a bit scared of me at the moment and that makes me feel really sad. I hate doing this to her but I would hate it more if I keep smoking and keep disappointing her that way. I really want to keep my promise to her this time because she has so far kept all of hers. Thank you for listening. Muchly appreciated.
Getting back to my venting now, this is where I get ****ed off with myself. I have a large support network, my boss is understanding, my girlfriend hasn't left me yet, so why the hell do I feel like bashing my head against a brick wall? I know, sleep deprevation. Guys its driving me nuts but I WILL get thru this even if it kills me. I am not going back to smoking now after going thru hell for a week. I know it'll take roughly 28 days to become somewhat normal. 7 down, 21 to go! It takes 21 days for something to become a habit so I'm hoping that in the next 21 days I can develop a habit of proper rest and sleep. The reason I'm angry at myself is because I'm usually a very shy and placid person but throw a bit of withdrawals my way and I become the devil himself. I do not like myself like this. My girl is staying right away from me and I can't blame her. She understands what's happening to me
but I can see in her eyes that she's a bit scared of me at the moment and that makes me feel really sad. I hate doing this to her but I would hate it more if I keep smoking and keep disappointing her that way. I really want to keep my promise to her this time because she has so far kept all of hers. Thank you for listening. Muchly appreciated.
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