I am a long time chronic weed user. This is my 3rd time quiting and I'm 40. I'm on day 34. The longest i quit was one year before i got married. The reason being was because i went on this trip w my fiance and i had no herb and was miserable. I realized...damn. This is aweful. So i did it. 33 years old i quit for about one whole year. Then i just started up slowly again. 2 months later i got pregnant so i quit again. Quit till i was done breast feeding.....and started again. Second baby the same. I quit for my pregnancy and feeding......then smoked everyday straight..5 times or more a day....just like always. Good stuff too. I lose a lot of weight when i smoke. I know im rambling....but im up at 130 am and cant sleep again. Its been 34 days and i thought i was feeling better after all the anxiety and stomach disturbances. Sleep problems..tachycardia...sweats..chills...crying. I'm not so good tonight AGAIN. Im laying here w my heart racing. I quit due to shortness of breath and i HATE needing something all the time. My kids should come first....not ****ing weed. I'm just list tonight and scared. I dont ever want to smoke again. Im so afraid there is something wrong w me healthwise...but all my labs are good...cxray clear..pulmonary test fine....ughhhhh. Does anyone relate. Just asking for advice..relation...help. I work in an ER and i help people all the time. I was highly functional on weed...but so stressed. I'm glad I'm clean.......but these spells suck.
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