Hi. I'm 18 years old and recently got caught smoking marijuana. Quitting wasn't my choice and I'm having a hard time adjusting to my new life pot free, but not for the reason that most people struggle to adjust.
You see, I would consider myself an artist. My work is not groundbreaking mind you, but I've dedicated an art blog to it and I want to maybe pursue a career of fine arts in the future. Smoking played a big part in my art process. It would help me relax and let go and actually make something decent without being worried of mistakes and messing up. Now that I can't smoke anymore, my Art feels extremely mediocre and I'm struggling to get out of bed to draw. Everything I make now just feels... Bad. Like it's not as good as it used to be. And I understand that making art while high gives you a false sense of superiority when it turns out that your art is actually trash and all that but this is different. I've looked at the art I've made while I was high compared to art that I make now and I've noticed a significant downgrade. It just isn't as fluid and dynamic as it used to be. It's come to the point where I haven't updated anything on my art blog for weeks now because I'm embarrassed of what I make and I feel like it's not good enough anymore. I know this is a cannabis help forum and not an art help forum but I don't know where else to turn.
I've tried talking to my parents about how I've been feeling with my art and how cannabis relates to it in the hopes that maybe they would see my point of view and let me light up again but to no avail--not that I can blame them. What should I do? I don't want to give up art but right now it feels so tedious and awful that I dread to even pick up a pencil.
Thank you
You see, I would consider myself an artist. My work is not groundbreaking mind you, but I've dedicated an art blog to it and I want to maybe pursue a career of fine arts in the future. Smoking played a big part in my art process. It would help me relax and let go and actually make something decent without being worried of mistakes and messing up. Now that I can't smoke anymore, my Art feels extremely mediocre and I'm struggling to get out of bed to draw. Everything I make now just feels... Bad. Like it's not as good as it used to be. And I understand that making art while high gives you a false sense of superiority when it turns out that your art is actually trash and all that but this is different. I've looked at the art I've made while I was high compared to art that I make now and I've noticed a significant downgrade. It just isn't as fluid and dynamic as it used to be. It's come to the point where I haven't updated anything on my art blog for weeks now because I'm embarrassed of what I make and I feel like it's not good enough anymore. I know this is a cannabis help forum and not an art help forum but I don't know where else to turn.
I've tried talking to my parents about how I've been feeling with my art and how cannabis relates to it in the hopes that maybe they would see my point of view and let me light up again but to no avail--not that I can blame them. What should I do? I don't want to give up art but right now it feels so tedious and awful that I dread to even pick up a pencil.
Thank you
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