The long road

[Thisisme373]

Well here I am trying to quit weed again after so many failed attempts.
I’m 6 days clean, it’s been absolute hell, lots of paranoia, depression, anxiety, sweating, anger and confusion.
I’m so annoyed I didn’t stick with it in the past as I’d be way better by now.
I need to quit this though as marijuana was really screwing me up, even though I feel worse now I know that in the long run I should be better off.

[JWC]

Well here I am trying to quit weed again after so many failed attempts.
I’m 6 days clean, it’s been absolute hell, lots of paranoia, depression, anxiety, sweating, anger and confusion.
I’m so annoyed I didn’t stick with it in the past as I’d be way better by now.
I need to quit this though as marijuana was really screwing me up, even though I feel worse now I know that in the long run I should be better off.

Hey there my friend,

Good to see your post. But not so good to read of your current situation. Sorry to read this.
I went back and reread some of your thread from last year--the ones where Alice and I hijacked your thread.

So last year you talked about a lot of stress in your life and this was a reason for starting cannabis back up. Has any of the stress improved?

As you know, these withdrawal symptoms really do suck. You did quit for 3+ months last time though, which is a good chunk of time. Do you think you can swing that again at least?

Good for you for being back here. Hang in there! One day at a time.
John

[gateway loiterer]

Hi Thisisme373 -
I can relate. My first week I was counting the minutes, hoping to feel better. The symptoms seemed unbearable. But looking over some of your previous threads, I see you've abstained from smoking for nearly four months before, so you know the strength you need is in there.
As for me, it took awhile, but I struggled through. I got to the point where I stopped counting the minutes. And after a few days, I didn't need to count the hours.
Today I'm 19 weeks weed free. But really, I look at it as 130 days, because I'm still counting the days (and marking them on the calendar). But hopefully sometime soon, my life will continue to correct itself and I can start counting the months. But I believe it's all in increments. And even if I can get to counting the months (ideally, counting the years!) I remember how hard this was and how easy it is to slip back into that green security blanket of weed, and I remember having to count the minutes. Keep progressing and stay strong, my friend!

[Thisisme373]

Hi JCW & gateway 👍
I’ve still got some stresses in my life but the job situation is better, work is ok although it’s very tough while I’m like this but still got to work, did you guys manage to work ok while in first weeks of quitting? It’s certainly a challenge!
My plan is to quit for good! I don’t wanna go through this crap again it’s horrible.
Good to hear from you John, and congrats on 19 weeks weed free gateway 👍
Im obviously early on in the real bad stage, from what I recall things improved a bit after like 16-18 days, with me it’s also the nicotine so I’ve been through hell this first 8 days, I’m so annoyed I ever touched weed, people glorify it but I think it can be really bad in long term use, from my experience and as we know coming off it is not so easy & really puts you through the ringer!
I’ve bought a load of vitamins & supplements today to hopefully make the withdrawals not as bad!

[Thisisme373]

15 days clean now, been having extreme paranoia, strong depression (especially in mornings), the anger has died down though.

[JWC]

15 days clean now, been having extreme paranoia, strong depression (especially in mornings), the anger has died down though.

Hang in there!

[Thisisme373]

Hang in there!

Hi john, 18 days now, been having insomnia & very powerful paranoia/anxiety along with depression, did you have this, when did this calm down a bit?
My brain feels fried, Feels awful.

[JWC]

Hi john, 18 days now, been having insomnia & very powerful paranoia/anxiety along with depression, did you have this, when did this calm down a bit?
My brain feels fried, Feels awful.

Hey there

I had insomnia, depression, and anxiety. In that order.

Not to discourage you, but to be honest, it took a while to go away. I felt better gradually, 3 months I felt a little better, then 5 months, and so on. The insomnia took the longest for me. Keep yourself distracted with stuff and really, one day at a time is a wise way to look at it.

You might want to check out Marijuana Anonymous--it really helped me in the first 4-5 months.

Keep at it!

[gateway loiterer]

Hi Thisisme and John - I'm sorry to hear you going through such troubles, but I think it's evidence of how much detoxing you might need to go through. I had all the same symptoms, and with much of the world still in lockdown due to the pandemic, we picked a hell of a time to quit. That said, your progress is commendable and I suggest you keep marking the days on the calendar and look at those days. You've earned them.
Along with Marijuana Anonymous that John suggested, you may want to search around some more on the web for forums suited to your specific troubles right now. This place has done wonders for me, and I suggest you continue checking in here regularly, as we are all clinging to the same lifeboat, so to speak. But other forms on places like reddit and other rehab sites also offer other voices who are going through the same thing as you at the same time. By my math, your 22-23 days clean now and there are countless others out there in the same time frame. You might benefit from hearing and talking to them too.
I'm looking at 5 months next week, and although I felt like hell that first month, it gradually gets better. I still have lousy moments, and I still have insomnia, but I also have a calendar with a bunch of marks on it and I can look at that when I need to. Hang in there and know there's others out here cheering you on.

[Thisisme373]

Hi John & Gateway - thanks for the replies and encouragement. It does seem it takes a long time to feel better, don’t get me wrong that does suck but the good thing is I haven’t felt any temptation to use (so far). I’m 23 days clean now, I’m noticing on days off work I feel like laying around loads and just watching tv and sleeping lol I seem to feel really tired a lot.

[adambomb]

The Swinging Door

Hey everyone and original thread poster,
Personally, I think being off again and on again with smoking is one of the worst places to be.
It seems like when I do this I end up with the worst of both worlds - I still xp lack of focus, paranoi, yet I cant alleviate it by smoking and loosing myself in comics or movies.
You are right with the long run hypothesis, but knowing this does not always help me stop smoking grass. Frequently, If I am honest with myself, then I dont really have the power
to stop on my own and therefore I need some type of higher power to do this for me. It is just the reality of the situation that if I dont want to knock off work to go home and feel a craving that either is unsatiated in a miserable way or that I just give in to and smoke, I have to rely on some type of power greater than me. I smoked habitually for years and this is the only solution that I found to work; its the only technique Ive found to keep me off weed for years and with a more colorful and vibrant life to boot. Idk, maybe it seems silly to some yet maybe these words will help someone else close the swinging door.

[Thisisme373]

Just over 6 weeks clean now. Been waking up in the night covered in sweat, shows THC is still in my body, been having dreams about weed aswell. I’ve been feeling really depressed, my minds been thinking of weed more like am I just punishing myself myself not having it. Life feels so dull and sad without it. Testing times.

[Thisisme373]

Anybody here?
Over 9 weeks clean now, seeing slight improvements

[gateway loiterer]

Hey Thisisme373 - So great to hear your keeping at it! You probably are getting a sober rhythm going now that you've cleared nine weeks. We're out here cheering you on!

[Thisisme373]

Thanks gateway, I’m about 13 weeks clean still going, I’m seeing some improvements although still dealing with depression & inconsistent sleep