Hi everyone,
I am a 31 year old female, been using cannabis regularly since age 14. Using daily for the past 7 years, multiple times daily. About 2 years ago I stopped "smoking" and started "vaporizing" but the frequency or amount used did not decrease. In fact, I loved vapor even more than smoke so my addiction got worse.
I am tired of the run-around. If I'm not doing it (trying to hide and be discreet) then I am thinking about it, trying to get it, etc. When I don't have it I become depressed, agitated, lots of yelling and crying, I have so much trouble controlling my emotions.
It's like my life revolves around it, and when I run out my life is miserable. I can't live like that anymore. I'm tired of chasing it, tired of depleting my finances, tired of having that uncontrollable craving every few hours. Personally, I would use every day, all day if it was there for me. It's not the cannabis that is destroying me in my mind, it is running out of it. But even I know that's the wrong way to be.
I cannot go to cannabis rehab for several reasons. I'm on my own with this, it's not even Day 1 and I am terrified and stressed. I don't want to be an addict anymore...I stopped smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol heavily awhile back with little trouble, but it's so much harder for me to stop this because I love it so much.
I'm so tortured over this...thanks everyone...
Ang
I am a 31 year old female, been using cannabis regularly since age 14. Using daily for the past 7 years, multiple times daily. About 2 years ago I stopped "smoking" and started "vaporizing" but the frequency or amount used did not decrease. In fact, I loved vapor even more than smoke so my addiction got worse.
I am tired of the run-around. If I'm not doing it (trying to hide and be discreet) then I am thinking about it, trying to get it, etc. When I don't have it I become depressed, agitated, lots of yelling and crying, I have so much trouble controlling my emotions.
It's like my life revolves around it, and when I run out my life is miserable. I can't live like that anymore. I'm tired of chasing it, tired of depleting my finances, tired of having that uncontrollable craving every few hours. Personally, I would use every day, all day if it was there for me. It's not the cannabis that is destroying me in my mind, it is running out of it. But even I know that's the wrong way to be.
I cannot go to cannabis rehab for several reasons. I'm on my own with this, it's not even Day 1 and I am terrified and stressed. I don't want to be an addict anymore...I stopped smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol heavily awhile back with little trouble, but it's so much harder for me to stop this because I love it so much.
I'm so tortured over this...thanks everyone...
Ang
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