my life

[needabreak]

i discovered drink at 15, smoke at 19, class As during my twenties and did wat millions of others did everywend thro the early to mid 90s-these days i'm a nondrinker who can take it or leave it-so i leave it-i always enjoyd a smoke so wen i stoppd drinking i binged out on smoke and other drugs-despite taking "soft" drugs to extremes i now know i can tke them or leave em-apart fro about once a year i leave them-

but smoke....

i'v been overdoin it for 7 years odd-i mean the two times i went to amsterdam i was on the verge of not goin cause i found it hard to leave the house, or face people-i just wantd to hide away-

after the first time i went i decided i'd stop smokn-and it workd-but i have to explain this was after a faild marriage and a head xtrmely fried for years-i stoppd smokn for a year n 18 months-i dont remember it bein the answer to my problems but it did sort out a few of them-suffice to say i startd smokn again-anyone who's hit the bottom and stops and then starts again will know-it doesnt take years to build up ur intake or the messd up head u once had-its straight down-
i'v spent the last 3 n half years tryen to stop smokn-i'v lastd an hour-a day-a week-a month-two months-endless round in circles and living inside ur head-i need help-hopefully this forum'll be the way to find the answer-any of u younger smokers-i mean in ur 20s-smoken starts off an orgy and ends up a ****-smokn dope in2 middle age can be a lonely self obsessed depression-

so today i stoppd smokn again-hooray!this time i mite leare th piano-, dope is a full time job wen u do too much-i spent hours upon hours at it-i'll hav 2 beware i dont throw the piano out the window-experience has taught me that that will not solve my problem-i'll hav the same problem added with a broken piano/window and neighbours who'll def think i'v lost it-in order for this to work 4 me i mite keep postn here and get things off my chest-some of u will understand-some wont-i'm doin it 4 me-

past experience tells me i'll not sleep 2nite-drugs screw u up and not doing drugs screws u up-i'll not be screwed up 4 ever even tho it mite feel like it at times-i'm positive now and mite be back wen things arnt as rosey-

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

I was the same, I first started to drink around 14-15, discovered dope around 18, but didn’t really start to get hooked until I was in my early twenties, it was then that I realised that I could take or leave the other drugs that I had tried, but pot was my true love.

Anyway it was a love that turned sour and in the end it caused me more pain than pleasure and totally screwed around with my mental health.

I think you have so got the right idea with putting your attention into your music, music is such a awesome and positive thing.

It sounds like you know exactly what you have got to do. Please feel free to post here as much as you like, we will always be here to listen, for the good times and the bad. I hope we can help you through this difficult time and I am sure your contribution will be of help to others.

Take care