Hi. 20+ years smoker trying to quit, again.

[jmc777]

Hi all, I am 38 been smoking since late teens. Given up once or twice, the longest was about a year ( I was in prison though.)
I am 3-4 days into quitting again, mega emotional, fear of the future, starting to dream again (not nice, more nightmares really.) and flu like feeling.
I have to pay my dealer back today the £20 I owe him for credit and am going to ask him for a spliff on the house.
I love the weed, just can not afford the £20 every two days it has become once again and can not help believing, maybe, I can do something more with my life.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi jmc777 welcome to the forum.

Don’t worry everything you are experiencing is perfectly normal, there are plenty who have posted here who have experienced the same. There probably is a lot more you could be doing with your life, I think that probably goes for most drug users, but you can quit if you really want to. Taking drugs often costs us a lot more than just the money we spend on it. Try to cut down gradually if you can and you will probably find it a lot less difficult to quit.

I wish you the very best of luck and please keep us posted on how you are doing.

[notme!]

you can do it

Hey jmc777
I also have been smokin for many years, since 197# something
this time I am taking on the Hobie of reading, Do something to break out of the normal habits maybe, I know that I would smoke before I did certain things
in my everyday life and that I think is the mental part of the addiction, yes I too went through the dreams and being irritable and my family would tell me to get high cuz they couldn't take it. about 3 and a half weeks for me and I noticed a change in my reaction to things. This might freak you out but I'm a believer in Jesus for many years, I know people in the church say how can this be. "Well don't judge me man" I say just help me like he did and like the man who started this site. standing O

[needabreak]

its not easy dude

i'm a heavy smoker too dude-about a quarter every day or at times it'd last 2 days-i stopped smokn on 31 march-it was goin ok-as u know we can b a bit(!) emotional and lost and mixd up and annoyed at the silliest of things wen we dont hav our fix-

on tues last i went to a mates house to watch th footy and despite all my preplanned efforts the second i saw th pot i knew i was caving in-we smoked a few joints and i made 1 to take home with me-thankfully i havent smokd since cause my system was loaded wi the stuff b4 31 march-

i'm not doin it cause of th money-it screws me up-but lots of my friends r smokers and its always easy got-up to now its been easy wen i'm not with other smokers-i just cant seem to say no even tho i would dearly love to-my brain hasnt got over the fact that i'm better off without it-at th minute i'm just gona try and hang in there-hope u do too-

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

I know what you mean about the dreams and been emotional. Good luck!

[jmc777]

Thanks for the all the replys. They are very helpful.
Well just on the back end of a three eighths binge, my suppliers had been waiting on a crop of kush, I convinced myself it would be good to finish on a good one.
Another thing I notice, the kush was amazing at first, then after the second bag it does not seem to be as strong. It gets to the point it could be any old cheap swag after a bit and I just tan it.
Down to one spliff again and I owe my man £20 already. Money is part of the problem for me- especially when I am smoking so heavily- like as soon as I get up, till it is gone.
Got to stop or cut down. It's like I am putting myself in suspended animation.
I have no life, no friends except my partner- and she is getting tired, no job.
Smoking the drug and sitting infront of a pc is my life at the moment.
I was made redundant just before Christmas. lol. I need to buck up.