Disappointed!

[Garnet]

Hi guys it's f*up that i have been smokin mj for 5 years now.Everyday from the moment when i am awake i would toke like 7-8 cones.In the early afternoon before lunch 5 cones after lunch 5 cones after work 7-8 cones.When Night falls is crazy i dont wana talk about it.

I am 24 this year and yesterday was one of the worst days of my life My best buddy found out that i was takin. We are friends for 15 years,all these years he didn't had any idea that i have been smokin mary.He is very disappointed with me and I feel extremely upset and so down to earth even right now.

Now i feel like **** as i have disappoint my family members too (Although they got no idea about me smokin it)but by self reflecting non in my family smokes only me but i em going for it today is my first day goin into cold turkey.This site gave me the motivation thank you ppl we all can do this together.

Always remember to tell yrself "If others can quit why not me" and 2ndly "Action is louder than words DO it and NOT just by saying it. 3rdly Don't let those dreams fool you it's you yrself that is stirring up **** for yrself.Always stay STRONG it's never too late to change,pray at times it really helps not just seeking for help but also talk to god.

Best Regards
Cypher
Take care ppl i will update my progress here real soon thxs for reading once again!

[needabreak]

respect

wer i come from smokn dope aint a big deal-my parents knew i smoked-my oldest son knew i smoked-everyone smokes-my problem is that i overdid it big time time so i had to stop-nearly 3 weeks now and feel much better-

but one thing i have learned-people have to accept me th way i am because i'm not changing me for any one-why not?because i know i'm not a bad person-if ur not a bad person too then u have every right to look someone straight in the eye and ask them what gives them the right to judge u-

i accept my family and friends' faults cause thats the way life is-imperfect-so long as mutual respect is involved people hav to accept the world for wat it is-and the people in it-who am i to pass judgement on anyone-and why should someone else hav that power over me-

ps- on a logistical front-how can u smoke and ur pal of 15 years not know-that doesnt make sense to me-

[Garnet]

well because i have good friends and family members around me that cares about my heath and their not as simple minded as you think mate. 2ndly my best buddy knows that i am smoking ciggies but not pot i keep my profile low wherever i go i dont just simply smoke pot in front of ppl and his a good friend that Hates drugs that was why he was so disappointed,that was why i kept it from my friends about my pot smokin habit.

[Garnet]

It make sense if yr Thinking hard.Most ppl be wondering his yr buddy he should know every single **** about you.But think do u have to actually tell everything or show yr buddy whatever ya doing ?& moreover his clean doesn't smoke or drink and his one respectable dude!LTC in the army eh lol! i have a few "smokin" mates but they aint my real friends.

where i come from, a single joint could land yrself in prison for consumption and trafficking 3 years minimum.Let me repeat myself a F* single joint. If ya carrying over 15g-20g worth of **** there goes yr head Hang! Basically i don't trust anybody only myself no one else!

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Well done on your efforts so far

Hi Garnet welcome to the forum

I don’t blame you for being secretive about your cannabis use, the laws do sound a bit harsh where you live.

We often think that our drug use only effects ourselves, but the reality is this simply isn’t true, my family found the fact that I was using drugs very upsetting, so did others that cared about me.

Well done on your efforts so far, going cold turkey isn’t easy. I am glad you take comfort in your faith and I hope we can help support you at this difficult time.

Take care, thank you so much for sharing your experience and please keep us posted on how it goes.

[needabreak]

respect

dont get me wrong dude-i dont disrespect u, ur family or ur pals-as u say the law wer ur at is way different to wer i live in this part of th UK-

i can see why u keep it to urself- i would too if that was the penalty-here if u wer caught with a quarter u wud get it confiscated and told not to do it again-it wouldnt even reach court-

my view on it is this-i dont see it as a bad thing-i dont see people who use it as bad people-my problem was wat i was doing with it-screwing up my life-i see pot like i do beer-haven a beer aint bad-but if i drink too much then its a major issue that needs to be dealt with-just like my own personal use of pot-its not easy to stop-but i'm into my 4th week not smokn and feel much better-i can look forward to things again-i aint ther yet but i'm on th right road-

i hope it works out for u dude-take care-u can sort it out-

[lastchance]

secret life

I started taking drugs when i was 18, got busted with class A when i was 21and lost my job in a bank. I lived in a small island and it was on the second page of the local newspaper "drugs man escapes sentence" harse for 1 lsd tab and 1/4 gram of speed. Some of my family and friends dissowned me and ii felt like a looser.

I eventually stopped the chemicals and started to gain peoples respect. Got a job and on the surface everything was good. Only thing was i was smoking more dope than ever. Never smoking tobacco no one suspected, I'm 36 now.

Don't live a lie, live your life! I don't remember half my life!

All the best to you and where your life takes you.

I'm sober for 4 days now and i can't turn back.

[Cannabis Rehab Guest]

Salute!

dont get me wrong dude-i dont disrespect u, ur family or ur pals-as u say the law wer ur at is way different to wer i live in this part of th UK-

i can see why u keep it to urself- i would too if that was the penalty-here if u wer caught with a quarter u wud get it confiscated and told not to do it again-it wouldnt even reach court-

my view on it is this-i dont see it as a bad thing-i dont see people who use it as bad people-my problem was wat i was doing with it-screwing up my life-i see pot like i do beer-haven a beer aint bad-but if i drink too much then its a major issue that needs to be dealt with-just like my own personal use of pot-its not easy to stop-but i'm into my 4th week not smokn and feel much better-i can look forward to things again-i aint ther yet but i'm on th right road-

i hope it works out for u dude-take care-u can sort it out-

Thanks alot buddy yr doing really GREAT! man it's yr 4th week now keep on going! You will always have my full support! Really appreciate yr comments thxs

[Drug Rehab Chick]

Hi Garnet,

I get you completely. The only people in my life who know I smoke are my other pot smoking friends...my family are clueless. They are very judgemental about everything and its not worth the grief to explain my struggle to them..believe me, their reaction wud be harsh and uncomprimising! I am the only one in my clan who even smokes ciggies, so if they knew about the pot, right now I'd be copping it from all corners..including getting raided.

I'm also very ashamed to tell anyone...been keeping away from everybody cos you just don't get taken seriously by your mates if you tell them you are detoxing cos you have a problem, especially if they smoke more than you do.

I'm lucky to live in a place with pretty lenient laws (Australia), but there's a definate stigma that I'm scared of because I'm a single mum now and have to be very careful.

I feel for you buddy..its hard enough to stop when the rest of society is pretty accepting of dope smokers. I would imagine it would be so much worse when even if you wanted to get help, just talking honestly about it could land you in jail....I will pray for you. Sending you best wishes and thoughts of comfort and support. Good luck and keep going...we're all behind you.