Day 4 sober off cannabis

[lastchance]

Hi all,

It's been a great help reading your messages.

I'm 36 married with one young child and i've been a heavy pot smoker for 18 years. In the last two and half years i have gone from being a succesful person that generally only smoked in the evenings and sometimes all day at the weekends to an all day smoker with no job. I've been smoking an ounce a month and recently it would only last a couple of weeks.

Finally i realise that i am at a cross roads that i've been at before, i can choose to continue and loose everything or change and everything can be mine again. Sounds like a simple decision, until night fall. As soon as the evening hits, the mood swings get worse, i'm angry, sad and hell to be around.

I can't sleep, i feel sick, migranes, i feel lonely, sad, lost, unable to think strait and the list goes on.

Thanks to reading your messages i don't feel so alone now. I'm hopeing things get better soon as my relationship with my wife has got even worse since quiting.

Well done to all of you and i hope i can follow your examples.

[Cannabis Rehab Admin]

Hi lastchance welcome to the forum.

I am glad CannabisRehab.org is helping you. Cannabis can creep up on you and end up taking over your life, I know it did mine. I have read you posts and I find them very moving, it sounds like drugs have had quite an effect on your life. It sounds like you are really going through it right now, I really feel for you I know what it’s like, all I can say is it will pass, sometimes things have to get worse before they can get better.

Well done on your efforts so far, I know it’s not easy.

Take care and please keep us posted on how it goes.

[lastchance]

Thanks, i don't want to hurt anymore

Thanks for your support.

Last night was the hardest, had a big argument with my wife. She's the victim in all this, putting up with all my sh** for over 10 years! I think we made a break through, once the cravings calmed i was making sense and i think she is starting to understand that i am making steps to change and i feel she will be able to support me now rather than just hate me for everything. Time will tell.

She's gone to work now, someone has to earn some money! I am left with my daughter, another reason to get my head strait, she's 3 and the last thing i want is for her to be another victim caught up in all this mess.

I still feel sick, with a really bad migrane but at least i don't crave any type of smoke. Last night i would have settled for anything, tobacco or pot. Tobacco would have just been a step back towards the pot.

It seems that it might be easier to reduce gradually rather than go cold turkey at the height of my addiction but i just did'nt have the will power to reduce my smoking, so cold turkey was the only option.

Day 5, no going back. Well thats the way i feel this morning. Hope i can keep the pma "positive mental attitude" tonight!

Thanks and all the best.

[lastchance]

Day 6

Hi all,

Yesterday evening was much easier, i noticed that tight feeling in my head had eased and i felt quitre fresh. When i was cleaning my teeth before bed i noticed how big my eyes were, normally one eye is closed and the other looking pretty red.

Not much sleep though, i felt really itchy, maybe just allergies but i took a allergy tab and it did'nt work. Maybe it's just in my head or can this be a part of detox?

I have given up the pot prebiously without any real symptoms, but i gues i had never been using the amount i was near the end.

Tired today but hopefully once i wake up a bit more my head will clear to how it was yesterday evening.

[needabreak]

now is the right time

hey-i'm glad its gettin better-i smokd for 20 years and fried my own head-itching is part of it for me too-i'm on week 4-th itch is still there but its like all the side effects of stoppn a lifetime smoken-they do ease up and will go away-the only thing to do is continue not to smoke-good luck dude-

if i wer u........if ur able to sort this problem out now then ur daughter will never see it-if u dont, she will notice as she gets older-

u'r makin th right move dude-u just have to get over this tough part-know ur making the right decision, for u, ur wife and ur daughter-good luck with it and hang in ther during the tough times-it'll b worth gettn free-

[lastchance]

Thanks needabreak,

Good to know it's not just me, i lie awake trying to think what it can be apart from the obvious detox symptoms. So far i had blamed my dog, hay fever and going through what food i had eaten as i have developed a number of food allergies over the years. The latest, about 12 months ago i became a celiac. Nothing to eat that contains wheat, barley Rhy and oats, that counts out a lot of munchies though!

Thanks very much for your kind words and the advice to continue being clean. Now that i am feeling a bit better i have to admit, like others have warned about on this forum, my mind has been saying pots not so bad it's just me. Maybe when i have dealt with my demons i can go back to smoking just a little. But who am i kidding! Only myself, not any of you guys that’s for sure. If your anything like me, i can't just do a little and i have proved that so many times in the past. It's crazy, i can't believe the detox from my old friend pot! I blamed the cones, i was alright when i was smoking joints, but reading everyone’s messages it's just the drug not the method!

If i can do this i will have plenty of time to think about how i educate my daughter about the dangers of drugs, even so called soft drugs.

Thanks and respect to you, 20 years is a long time too. Looking forward to 4 weeks clean and the itching easing!

[needabreak]

hope u'r goin well

thanks for the good words dude-

ur brain'll invent many things to explain away the time u smoked and how u'r feeling now-i get flashing lights behinds my eyelids wen i go to bed!it'll take time lastchance but u will get ther-ur brain will try to fool u into using again-it will invent rationallizations that make it okay-its like part of u will come up with excuses to over rule the other half of ur brain that doesnt want to smoke-

dont listen to them-know that pot was screwing up and the life u have around u-i'd be pretending if i said that i might go back top smoking pot in the future and i'll be fine with it-i wont-it has screwed me up and my only option is to take my head out of my ass and admit it to myself- we'r all different-but we can learn fro each other and i'll be continuing to post and hopefully get my head round it and be happy again-

good luck dude and know u'v made the right choice to stop doing sumat that was fu'cking u up-that goes for me too-