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  • Today, 02:20 AM
    William
    Quote Originally Posted by Alice View Post
    Hi there Admin :-)
    It is interesting to read about the difference between CBD and THC. I might try some CBD medicinally, although I am not sure how willing my doctor would be to prescribe it!
    Although I am not at all interested in the mess that would ensue if I were to start smoking again, it might be THC that creates that mess.
    I should definitely read more about it in any case. Maybe taking CBD would not trigger cravings for smoking cannabis, in which case, it would definitely be worth a shot.
    Thanks so much for your thoughts :-)
    Hope its been a good 13 years. Wish I could say the same ;-)
    Cheers,
    Alice!
    You can read this article, where a little is described about the specifics of the work of THC, and the general effect of cannabis on the body: https://thcdetox.biz/blog/marijuana-health/ (not for promotional purposes).
    For me, this is like a reference book that helps me to stay afloat and not to succumb to the green snake. One must constantly convince oneself that cannabis is evil and not even give a chance to subconsciousness and dependence to win this war. Look for support for yourself in everything, read books, articles, look for information about the fate of people destroyed because of marijuana, watch documentaries. Help others who think cannabis is harmless and spend its best years on it. Drug propaganda works very well now, because this is a very profitable business. Remember, to change the world, first change yourself!
  • 03-22-2019, 04:40 AM
    Alice
    Hi there Admin :-)
    It is interesting to read about the difference between CBD and THC. I might try some CBD medicinally, although I am not sure how willing my doctor would be to prescribe it!
    Although I am not at all interested in the mess that would ensue if I were to start smoking again, it might be THC that creates that mess.
    I should definitely read more about it in any case. Maybe taking CBD would not trigger cravings for smoking cannabis, in which case, it would definitely be worth a shot.
    Thanks so much for your thoughts :-)
    Hope its been a good 13 years. Wish I could say the same ;-)
    Cheers,
    Alice!
  • 03-21-2019, 03:20 PM
    Cannabis Rehab Admin
    CBD's are known to have a anti anxiety and anti pychotic effect for some, it's the THC that has the opposite effect for most and one of the biggest problems with most modern day weed which is very high in THC compared to CBD. You can get CBD oils and capsules without THC and legally in many countries now including here in the UK.


    If you genuinely feel it has that effect on you then if you are able you could always use it as you feel necassary or in the event of an epsiode to see if it helps. It's not saying you would have to use it regulary if you felt it was the right choice for you, I guess views are probably quite divided on whether it is a good idea or not after having quit. Genuine medicinal use though is in fairness a different thing to recreational. Yes 13 years, where does the time go, still IMO it was the right decision for me.


    All the best,
  • 03-21-2019, 07:34 AM
    Alice
    Thanks so much CRA :-)
    It is so nice to really experience what it is like to live cannabis free. And I think you are right. It can take some time to appreciate just how rewarding life can be without cannabis. I loved that about quitting. After the initial withdrawal, it was like a gift that kept on giving for quite some time, years even!

    I do have to stay vigilant of some things. I haven't really been tested with the peer pressure test as yet. I think if I were hanging around old friends who still smoke occasionally, it would be more difficult. Thankfully, as we get older, the peer pressure thing becomes less likely. I still hope that I would have the presence of mind to remind myself that some kind of 'party smoke' would just get me back on the hamster wheel, and not do it.

    It is a bit weird that I have had two episodes of mental illness in the past six months, which is two more than the none I had in the five years previous to that. I do wonder if some ingredient in cannabis helps to keep me out of psychosis, but the better news is that I recover more quickly and do a lot less damage without cannabis in my life.

    All in all, I am very happy to be sitting here on the other side, without addiction really being a part of my life at all!

    Thanks again for your support. I can't believe that you have been free for 13 years!! That really is something :-)
  • 03-19-2019, 11:20 PM
    Cannabis Rehab Admin
    Three years clean wow! That is awesome Alice! Many congratulations, the first few years are definitely the toughest and after that I found at least that not using just became much more part of everyday life again, that does mean you don't have to be on guard and mindful of avoiding the same pitfalls that brought you to where you were before but at least now you are much more aware of what they are and able to keep a watchful eye on avoiding them.


    I honestly believe that rehab is a long term evolving process that often takes a little bit longer than most probably expect to see it's fullest rewards and once you do like you say, you don't want to trade your new found freedom for the world.


    Keep up the good work!
  • 03-12-2019, 02:25 AM
    William
    Quote Originally Posted by Alice View Post
    Thanks, William. You are right, I did succeed. As of three days ago, I am three years clean!! I can't really believe that :-)
    It is so amazing though. I wouldn't give up my freedom for the world.

    How is your quit going? What stage are you up to?
    My congratulations, this is really a very cool result that deserves respect and recognition!
  • 03-11-2019, 04:30 AM
    Alice
    Thanks, William. You are right, I did succeed. As of three days ago, I am three years clean!! I can't really believe that :-)
    It is so amazing though. I wouldn't give up my freedom for the world.

    How is your quit going? What stage are you up to?
  • 03-11-2019, 02:31 AM
    William
    Quote Originally Posted by Alice View Post
    I struggled a bit on Sunday evening. I guess because it was the last opportunity for the weekend to smoke. I felt as though I wanted to have fun, and to take my mind somewhere else, but in the end, I decided to have a glass of wine, instead, then after dinner, I got distracted by Internet troubles. I was so close to smoking, but at every step I took, I was also happy to have a clear mind and this morning I realised it was so worth it! I have been in a great mood all day :-) I know that would not have happened had I smoked. It really does wonders for my mood, abstaining :-) It is great! I had a productive day at work and got everything I wanted to do today, done, so it all turned out for the best :-) Now I just have to remember that next weekend :-) Cheers!
    I am very glad that you did not succumb to the temptation and remained clean! The hardest thing is not to quit, and not start smoking again! You will succeed!
  • 03-10-2019, 07:38 AM
    Alice
    Hey John,
    Thanks for your reply. It is good to hear from you :-)
    Yes, I have read about the connection between depression and sleep as well. I have heard that people can wake up in the night (or early) if they are suffering from depression. When I am well it works in a bit of a different way - I will wake up early if something particularly exciting or particularly happy happens the night before.

    My sleep is back to the same old pattern - stay up to a reasonable hour, wake up late. I guess it is what it is. I am definitely feeling a LOT better, thanks for asking. I took your advice and took it pretty easy last week. After a pretty intense day at uni on Monday I pretty much recuperated for the rest of the week until Friday. It was almost like quitting cannabis again. It seems that my dopamine system was out of whack from the recent episode and I needed some time to just rest and get my reward system back into gear.
    As for the red dresses, pretty much all of them have gone into the 'donate' pile, which is a bit of a depressing waste of money, but it is not the end of the world.

    With regard to your theory on the PNS, it sounds very interesting. I can relate on some level, because sometimes I doze off when I am reading in bed, but it is a very light sleep and then I wake up properly to take my medication and switch the lights off. On those occasions, I can find it VERY HARD to get back to sleep. It can be really annoying, but I have wondered if maybe we have some kind of storage of some kind of sleep chemical in our brains and if we use it up (with your 15 minute nap, or me with my light dozing), we can find it hard to drift off to sleep again afterwards. What do you think?

    I am so happy to hear that you have found something that helps somewhat (abdominal breathing) and that it is better the further you get away from your quit. You also mentioned that your relationship is not going so well at the moment? How are you feeling about that?

    10 kg!! That is amazing. I am still on the weight they started me on about 3 - 6 months ago - 3kg. Lol. I go up to 5 kg for the quad and back track. I didn't make it again to class this weekend. It is such a shame. I need to find a community of fitness enthusiasts to develop a fitness mindset again. I find starting again after a break the hardest part.
    That TRX class sounds fun and good! How was it?

    Thanks for your thoughts, energy and words :-) You are welcome here any time! I hope you continue to be well too!
    Alice :-)
  • 03-05-2019, 12:16 PM
    JWC
    Hi Alice,

    Just re-read your last post.

    One of the causes for sleep issues is depression. Have read that and my doctor told me last July when he prescribed Trazodone for me. An old antidepressant that causes drowsiness so many docs prescribe it as a sleep aid when they suspect there is depression involved. I'm not sure your mental illness is depression, but through all of my research last year, there is clearly a link between mental health and sleep.

    So, am I correct in understanding that the "guy who is central to the story of your psychosis" helped kick you out of it this time? And I'm guessing he is a love interest? Is he from "the source" lol
    Speaking of which, no, I haven't been to NZ but have met a few NZ guys, so I kinda know what you're talking about! ;-)

    Are you still feeling better? Sleep?
    It sounds terrible to go through these episodes. Try not to beat yourself up too much about being less productive. Try to ride the wave and doing what you can is good enough. Although if you buy too many red dresses, that can be problematic to the purse....

    My idea about my parasympathetic nervous system comes from the feeling that my body just can't relax enough to drift off to sleep. The PNS kicks in to calm your body and mind, acting against the sympathetic nervous system. I suspect the cannabis use has affected this. There could be some uderlying issues as well surrounding my relationship. Not sure I am entirely happy with the status quo. Often I will doze off for 15 or so minutes and then pop back awake, and then not fall asleep again for 2-3 hours. As I've mentioned before, it is much better than last year. When I think back to the state I was in, my brain and my body, it is hard for me to believe. In terms of falling asleep, I think it's the same issue now, just at about 10% or so of what it was back then. One technique that I find somewhat helpful is abdominal breathing. This is supposed to acitivate the PNS, and I actually do find that is works. It doesn't knock me out right away but I do feel it helps.

    Body pump....let's see...my base weight on the bar is 10 kilos--22 pounds. The biggest weights are 5 kilos I think (11 pounds). I then add the little ones--2.2 pounds I think, so 1 kilo. So 12 kilos is my typical weight. Occasionally I will add the medium weights to the 10 kilos....but haven't done in a while. Hey, maybe I'll give that a go again this evening!
    I am taking a TRX class for the month of March on Saturday mornings. First class was last Saturday, taught by my favorite Body Pump instructor, who is wonderful. It's exercises using a big strap with handles that is attached to the ceiling. I have to say I enjoyed it and am definitley feeling it in my shoulders and upper back!

    Well my dear, thanks for the posts and allowing me to type here. Hoping you continue to be well and happy!

    John
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