I'm glad I found this forum. Here is my story:
I am on day 7 of quitting smoking weed. I have been a smoker for about 44 years. I was a very heavy smoker and started at a young age growing my own stuff so I didn't have to pay the price for it. I never sold it but would give it away to friends. My whole life seems to have revolved around this plant. I have always been ashamed of smoking pot but I continued to smoke anyway. I thought I was pretty cool and could handle it. For the last thirty years or so I have smoked at every opportunity, from morning until I went to bed and even smoking a couple of times in the middle of the night to help me sleep. I believed that it was pretty benign substance but oh how wrong I was for those years. My career never went anywhere, I based all of my life decisions around smoking and continuing to smoke. I did not smoke before work or during but did after work and it got to the point it was overwhelming. I would hit the bong the minute I got home from work and it never ended until a week ago. I quit cold turkey and have had a rough time of it since. I haven't gotten a decent nights sleep since quitting and have experienced a lot of discomfort, nausea, body aches and so on. I don't hardly even know what day of the week it is anymore and my memory is horrible. I was taking bong hits hourly and the stuff didn't seem to affect me or get me very high anymore. It was a good place to hide and I did.
Well, I was at the doctors office yesterday and I finally told him about my problem and quitting toking. He seemed shocked as I have been able to hide it pretty well over the years. My blood pressure was elevated at 160/79 and he seemed to think that it was because of the withdrawal from pot and being agitated. Anyway, he was very supportive and that made me feel a little better. I have finally told some people about my problem and I feel like I am making some positive progress with this addiction. I guess some people don't have a problem with dependency or withdrawal from this drug, but I did (do.)
Anyway, it is comforting to know that I am not the only one who has had a problem with this drug and withdrawal from it. I used to be in favor of legalization but now I am not.
Sorry if I have rambled on or been unclear but my head feels like it is full of cotton and it is hard to think.
I'm not going back. Never.
That's the short version of my story. The only positive thing about it is that I have quit it for good.
Peace,
Longtime toker (now ex-toker)
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