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    My heart is so heavy on this dreary Sunday morning. Hopefully I am imagining it. I had closed my heart. I certainly don't want to drag it open again. Give me something real!

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    It is the same with any kind of addiction. When I taste the stimulus again, even after some time, it opens up all those receptors. And the neural network tries to reinstate itself. It creeps back in.

    I know that I need something a bit more concrete than a few numbers on a page, but where Turtle is concerned, I am overly sensitive to his attention. Before last night, I had based my new reality on all the concrete things that had happened in my world. I like thinking about what really went down, rather than this non verbal attention, which is at best just an illusion.

    I don't want to go backwards. I can feel my brain rebuilding. It is no good. I was free, and I admit, thinking about Turtle was still one of my favourite things, but with this kind of detached way, where I was not involved in his world.

    My new attitude where relationships are concerned, is that if someone cared, they would give me something real. That is the bottom line.

    So, I hope that I am imagining this, or I hope that today and tomorrow will strengthen my heart.
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    give. me. something. real.

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    Have a great day peoples
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    Good to have the site back up again! Thanks for fixing it CRA!

    What was wrong with it?
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    There is definitely something curious and peculiar about certain patterns in the 1's and 0's on this page.

    It doesn't cut across platforms though, so I guess I am imagining it.

    Shame! I am not going to lie to you. There is a happiness in my soul where that little vegemite is concerned, hehe.

    Hope you are having a great day!!

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    And yes, I know how this sounds. It definitely sounds like I am a bit crazy / imagining things!!

    I remind myself of my schizophrenic friend from high school who never seems to get better and often crumbles into making accusations about her neighbours moving things in her house. That is exactly who I sound like! Hehe.

    The thread through this experience has been an irrational place for numbers and their meanings.

    I am fine!! It is just curious. I am open to the possibility of splats, de nada, nothing.

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    I have had such a nice day. I feel like I am filled with words. I feel like the left hand side of my brain (verbal as opposed to pictures), is completely switched on. It is a great feeling.

    Hope you are having a great day!!

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