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    Alice Cannabis Rehab Guest

    Default Alice's quit journal

    Hi everyone,

    I hope you don't mind if I start a thread to document my cessation of cannabis. Tonight I decided to abstain. I don't usually smoke during the week, but today I was in such a good mood and I have my period, so I felt like I wanted to take my happiness to another level.

    However, since I have decided not to smoke any more, I abstained. Now I have plunged into sadness and depression, and I guess the easiest thing to do is to smoke, but if I did, I would have a hangover (on a Wednesday no less) and in a couple of nights get nightmares. Therefore, I decided not to smoke, come what may.

    My psychologist uses the ACT mindfully method, which I have found very effective and part of it is to be willing to experience uncomfortable feelings. I am getting better at this. I feel like crap tonight. I was so happy and now I feel like crap, but I am willing to go through this so that tomorrow I am not having some kind of fuzzy head for a few hours and the nightmares. There is nothing I can do about uncomfortable feelings. They will be here whether I smoke or not!

    I am thinking I might just go to bed soon. It was a good day. Perhaps it would have been GREAT if I got high, but it is Tuesday night. Seriously!?! And I want to quit this to be more self sufficient.

    Good luck in your quit journey!

    Alice.

    Goodnight! I am not going to feel good tonight, so I may as well go to bed :-)

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    Alice Cannabis Rehab Guest

    Default Biting me on the bum

    I don't know what is going on! I don't usually smoke during the week, but this is the second night in a row that I have been craving it. Maybe because it is available? I got some last week, but I realised on the weekend that I don't want to use any more. It stuffs up my sleep and gives me a hangover. The biggest reason though, is that I want to move to the city and I won't know anyone to buy off, so, I am being proactive.

    I certainly don't want to go back to smoking every night after 5pm. It is not real! It is a slippery slope as many of you know. It is better just not to smoke at all. What do they say? One is too many, a thousand is not enough?

    I can do this! If I keep writing my way out of the cravings, I know I will win in the end. Every post I write here and read here reinforces the fact that I want to be free!

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    It is Friday night, but tomorrow night is going to be the biggest challenge. Lonely and bored in a small town, it has been an escape for the past few weekends. I need to find a new hobby for Saturday nights.

    I had another nightmare last night. It was awful. I think it must be something to do with this particular strain. If I were to keep smoking I would keep having nightmares, on the nights I don't smoke. It is not worth it and I am not willing to go through that.

    I find that weed is completely anti social. I can barely function socially when I smoke. That is another reason.

    It does help to write it out, but tomorrow is going to be hard.

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    I want to smoke and I am not going to. Maybe I should just go to bed and read. I will feel a million times better tomorrow when I haven't smoked. My brain is going into protest mode, giving me the heavy, dragging feeling of wanting to escape, but I know that this is for the best. I only have three more weekends until I am in Melbourne. It will be character building!

    I have a headache and I think that bed will be the best place for me :-)

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    Quote Originally Posted by Alice View Post
    I want to smoke and I am not going to. Maybe I should just go to bed and read. I will feel a million times better tomorrow when I haven't smoked. My brain is going into protest mode, giving me the heavy, dragging feeling of wanting to escape, but I know that this is for the best. I only have three more weekends until I am in Melbourne. It will be character building!

    I have a headache and I think that bed will be the best place for me :-)

    Hang in there, you can do it! After quitting, sleep is indeed quite beneficial. Our nights are not so good anymore. I my case, I had trouble sleeping a whole night at first, despite the fact that I was really tired when I went to sleep. Lately, I'm less tired and I manage to get a good 6.5-7 of sleep per night with sometimes (less and less) a quick nap during the day. If you are bored, start playing Baduk (Go, Weiqi). It's like a gym for the brain and supposedly, it is good for the brain and helps with dopamine. IIt helps against brain aging.
    according to this study http://www.researchgate.net/publicat..._imaging_study



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    Maybe I'll meet you there!?

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    Thanks so much letsgoforit, that looks like a really interesting game, and an interesting paper :-) I am going to give it a go. Hopefully I will meet you there!

    Yes, sleep, beautiful sleep :-) I think one of the biggest reasons for abstaining is the nightmares. I tend to get them a couple of nights after I smoke, and I would rather sleep without them :-) So that means I am going to find other things to do on the weekend :-) Thanks again for the game suggestion. It is very helpful :-)

    We are doing it! Woot!

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    I am doing that thing where I am justifying maybe smoking after dinner, because I am starting to get scratchy and cranky. It is so nice to have a clear head though, and I will feel SO much better tomorrow if I abstain. I have so much to do in terms of getting ready to move to Melbourne and I won't miss the weed hangover tomorrow.

    I am really proud of myself. This Saturday night is almost done and I have a clear head :-) Woot!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Alice View Post
    I am doing that thing where I am justifying maybe smoking after dinner, because I am starting to get scratchy and cranky. It is so nice to have a clear head though, and I will feel SO much better tomorrow if I abstain. I have so much to do in terms of getting ready to move to Melbourne and I won't miss the weed hangover tomorrow.

    I am really proud of myself. This Saturday night is almost done and I have a clear head :-) Woot!

    If you have quit before you know that that smoke would bring you back to square 1. Remember why you are quitting. Don't let it control your life. You are strong!

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    Thanks lgfi :-) You are so onto it! Back at square one alright. I had some more lucid dreams last night, but they were kind of happy dreams, where I knew everything would turn out okay. Much better than the nightmares I would have if I smoked.

    How are you going? It must be nearly 40 days? You are onto a winner. As people say in my smoking cessation forum, NOPE - not one puff ever. I was thinking last night how I can't imagine smoking cigs any more. Hopefully it will get to the same place with weed!

    Hope you are having a nice weekend? :-)

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    I struggled a bit on Sunday evening. I guess because it was the last opportunity for the weekend to smoke. I felt as though I wanted to have fun, and to take my mind somewhere else, but in the end, I decided to have a glass of wine, instead, then after dinner, I got distracted by Internet troubles. I was so close to smoking, but at every step I took, I was also happy to have a clear mind and this morning I realised it was so worth it! I have been in a great mood all day :-) I know that would not have happened had I smoked. It really does wonders for my mood, abstaining :-) It is great! I had a productive day at work and got everything I wanted to do today, done, so it all turned out for the best :-) Now I just have to remember that next weekend :-) Cheers!

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