I found your posts relatable and reassuring at the same time. Would love to know how you're doing now?
I haven't stopped smoking completely yet, but my doctors and I suspect I've given myself chronic gastritis from smoking for the last ten years. And these symptoms alone are the worst thing to ever happen to me. I've dropped significantly the amount I smoke because I'm so ill I actually can't even be bothered. I get nausea, dizziness, confusion, irritability, fever, acidic stomach, anemia, panic attacks and anxiety.. and on top of that I'm trying to get off weed and battle agoraphobia induced from the 7 month lock down here in Melbourne.
It's so hard. Reading posts like yours who are further ahead than I am makes me feel better. At the moment I feel like I have no purpose (I had to quit my job because of all this), so that makes things even harder.
Todays a better day though. I've managed to get out of bed, eat breakfast and lunch, go for a little walk, laugh a bit. And when I started up a weed vape, I put it down half way.
the little wins
